Psychodynamic Counselling and Cognitive Behaviour Therapy

I have always been fascinated by risk takers, and when I was at the height of my drinking career, I took many risks. Not only with my health, and my relationships, but sometimes I am quite sure I got a buzz from getting away with some spectacularly bad behaviour. That was the reward. All drinkers think that they deserve a reward, usually in the form of a green bottle or two, for coping with the ups and downs of daily life, and of course, like me, they run the risk of becoming reliant, habitual alcoholic drinkers, users of a legal and acceptable drug. Base jumping was child’s play in comparison.

I was once told that our mental growth is stunted from the time that we first become to dependant on alcohol or drugs for our behaviour and day to day chaos. It does make quite a lot of sense as many alcoholics are deeply immature, almost child like, often throwing tantrums when we can’t have what we need rather than want. I certainly could become the ultimate Diva. If I stamped my foot hard enough, and became loaded enough, I could, through fair means or foul get what I wanted. But the costs of that gradually became higher and higher. Yet still I thought the reward was worth it.

It becomes understandable that highly functioning professionals often rely on drugs, both legal and illegal. The film Wall Street showed that side of a high risk business, albeit Hollywoodesque, on various levels the same type of risk/reward goes on throughout the world with alcohol. Winning and achieving is always rewarded. When you are child it is with a treat perhaps of cake and the latest electronic game, with grown ups with a drink a little bit of retail therapy.

My risk and reward system is now completely changed. Often the risk in the past for me was to gain things, especially of monetary value, and of course you know the reward.

I now take risks on people, I use my experience and knowledge to trust them to follow a plan, sometimes with bumps and trials, but ultimately to achieve control or abstinence with alcohol. My reward is obvious, their wellbeing and contentment is partially down to me.

That is a good feeling that never fades. In fact it can continue for years. The people that I helped now help others, and the pleasure from that for me, knows no bounds.


2 Responses to Risks and Reward

  1. crystalquest

    You do amazing work…. All too often people look down on the individual who has addictions yet i bet alot of professionals out their too have these traits but refuse to admit it in social surrounding to their peers. I am in recovery from heroin addiction, im a single mum and my biggest achievment is bringing my daughter into this world on my own all the way up until now. Its the only job i am good at…since being in recovery iv found people are quick to judge you, its very hard to be excepted in this society and believe there should be more information out there as to why people fall into the wrong way of life. I bet 99.9% of people made that decision not because they wanted to be outcast from society but because they are ultimately going through a really bad time then to top it off society doesnt want to know you, its impossible to get a job because your tarnished and dont get me started on the help thats available to us once we drag ourselves from that way of life-your basically put in the same job cue as any other job seekers, its very wrong!!! We need alot of help, mental support and guidance not shoved into any job to make the numbers up… Lifes very hard when you come out the other end of addiction to say the least….

  2. crystalquest

    There seems to be alot about alcohol on here but not very much on drug addiction, why is that?

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