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As it says on the tin, ‘finally under 30st’! How bloody happy was I when I stepped on the scales today and saw the numbers 29 – the rest was a blur, but it was 29st 13lbs – a loss of 4.5lbs this week.

This means that my total loss is now 13st 6.5lbs…I was so close to that next award; so close that I was allowed to nip for a wee after a while and see if it made a difference! But I had been drinking water whilst signing people in and this, combined with the teeniest tiniest wee, actually saw me put 0.5lbs on…so we are going for the lower figure!

When I got off the scales, my consultant gave me a big hug – we were both thrilled. I wasn’t actually expecting a decent loss this week; not because I haven’t been on plan, but because of all the exercise. I thought that it might take a couple of weeks to settle down, and I actually felt like I had lost more last week. Another bit of evidence to demonstrate how strange our bodies can be. I genuinely wasn’t expecting it and had prepared myself to get that goal next week instead of today. So I have a big grin on my face today and when I called my Dad to tell him, he said, “skinny bitch!”, which made me chuckle. I have lost a bloody big lump of weight, and feel slim(mer) but am not in the realms of ‘skinny bitch land’ just yet…getting there though.

I do have a Kylie complex – I have said it before! I see pictures of myself and cannot get to grips with it being me, as I don’t feel the way I look. I know I will never prance around in gold hotpants, unless seriously under the influence of drugs or alcohol…and even then, I think something would stop me – or hope that someone would stop me! But it is weird; there are people with body dysmorphia who believe that they are ugly and when they look in the mirror, they just can’t see their beauty…I have the opposite issue – maybe it’s called denial?! – I don’t think that I look bad until I see a mirror.

On a serious note, I do keep away from mirrors at the moment as I don’t want to depress myself! A picture my other half took the other day made me feel a bit deflated, as I looked a bit like a deflated balloon…all of me is going south…so I just need to focus on the feelings and not the numbers or the looks just yet. ‘Fall in love with the feeling’ as Jessie Pavelka says!

Right then – group was good today. Quieter than usual as a few members were off on holiday, but still a good group. They are all lovely people and it was a good session. Two nice first weight awards for a Mum and Daughter duo, along with a nice loss for a girl who struggles to balance student life with the plan…or struggles to balance the amount of alcohol with the plan!

Pizza Lady was on fine form today…talking about bread and pizza again. I was a bit rude to her though and felt a bit naughty! I have a real issue with manners – people who don’t put their hands over their mouth when coughing or yawning, or people who talk during group, or people who talk on mobile phones whilst my consultant is talking to the group. All of these things, Pizza Lady has done. Today, I think I could have counted her fillings from across the room, as she spent most of her time yawning excessively with her mouth so wide that I thought I was driving towards the Dartmouth Tunnel.

And it just popped out of my mouth…”Are we keeping you up xxx? I have seen more of the inside of your mouth than your face today!”, was what I said. I can’t say that I was hugely regretful as it worked; she didn’t yawn again. But I felt bad as I don’t like being mean…but she laughed when I said it so I don’t think she took it personally. Bless her. My old Nan used to use the phrase, ‘two sandwiches short of a picnic’…’two slices short of a pizza’ might be more apt. Oooh…that is a bit ‘bitch’ of me…but I won’t edit myself as I promised to be honest in this blog and would hate to give the impression that I am an angel!

My favourite lady had a little gain this week, which I later found out was due to a drinking session to celebrate her grandsons 21st birthday! We had a little chat after group and I think she is on a soup making mission; I really hope that she comes back with a loss next week. The lady I mentioned last week that is moving groups soon for work reasons hadn’t had a great week either, and stayed behind and we chatted with the consultant between us. She struggles not to eat bad food when her kids and hubby eat it. I tried to make a point about how the focus needs to be on your own journey, as did our consultant. My other half was eating Carte D’or apple crumble ice cream whilst I had a Muller light…on my birthday. It isn’t about, ‘if I can do it, you can do it’ but it’s about focussing on what you want more – the ice cream / junk, or a weight loss. So I hope that she comes back with a loss next week too…I think it would really spur her on!

Before I finish, I just want to let you know that I am not ignoring any comments you make on my blog posts…I have over 53,000 comments pending, most of which are spam and I just can’t get to approve them all at the moment! So thank you for commenting, and please email me if you fancy a chat about a specific post as I can see emails without any problems – weightlossb1tch81@yahoo.com – and in the meantime, I am working on spam filters!

So then, today’s usuals…

I was not happy to hear the alarm this morning as I was in a lovely sleep! I got up anyway and started working on a project for my other half, I then readied myself for group and headed off there. You already know all about group, so after this I collected my other half and we went to the horses and to Asda – oh, and the horses got some apples from my Slimmer of the Week fruit! I then popped to look after the kids whilst my sister and her hubby went for a drive in my Mums new car. We played in the garden and made giant bubbles…and I got my foot run over by a big red toy car! I then headed home for lunch and a social media catch up. I don’t think that there will be much going on later – maybe a bit of reading. Our Sky TV has buggered up and I can’t get any BBC or Five channels…so my Aussie soaps and Eastenders are suffering!

Breakfast: Banana – followed by more fruit after weigh-in!

Lunch: Low fat Supernoodles with stir fry veggies.

Dinner: Hummus (3 syns), pitta (2 x HEB), halloumi (2 x HEA), Quorn ‘chicken’, middle eastern mousakaa.

Snacks: French fries (24 syns).

Brekkie was just something quick before weigh in, but I felt a bit woozy after class – it was 12.30! – and so had some fruit in the car! Lunch was quick and simple, and dinner was a bit of an affair really. I was going to treat myself to a takeaway from the Palestinian restaurant nearby which makes the most delicious food…I could spend a day in there eating! But I always spend a fortune and given how well things are going, I didn’t want to veer off track, so I decided to make my own version. The hummus is the same as I always make – chickpeas, Hellmann’s lighter than light, lemon juice, garlic, cumin and today, as it was supposed to be my birthday-week night off, a bit of special cracked black pepper…all blitzed with a handblender. As I wanted pitta bread, I opted for a Green day so that I could enjoy two of them, and so went for the Quorn ‘chicken’ instead of proper chicken. And then I mixed some spices – don’t ask me what as I can’t remember! – to get a taste similar to that which their food tastes of and cooked that with tomato, red onion, peppers and aubergine. I can never quite get it right, but as I can control what goes in it, and I know the syns, I was happy for a small compromise…and it wasn’t a bad compromise at all; it was so tasty and will definitely be on the menu again! The crisps…what can I say? I love my crisps and until it becomes absolutely necessary for me to ditch my Tuesday multipack, I will be enjoying them. Oooh – I also had a little bottle of diet Coke with my name on it…but can’t show you that as it would give the game away!

Exercise: None – an absolutely blissful rest day for me!

Thank you for reading guys, and I just wanted to say another huge ‘thank you’ for your support…I know that it might sound silly, but your support means a lot and it has contributed to getting me to that 29st-something mark…you are all ace!

Weight Loss Bitch xxx

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WeightLossBitch

On a health and fitness driven journey to lose over 32st / 448lbs / 203kgs – yes, it is a considerable amount – I am committed to losing my excess weight without the aid of weight loss surgery, diet pills, or quick fixes…as there aren’t any! Changing my eating habits and building up my fitness levels, along with addressing the ‘head issues’ will be crucial in order for me to achieve my goal. Living in England as a 31 year old super morbidly obese woman can be challenging to say the least. I have been shouted at in the street and verbally abused far too many times to mention; hence the name ‘Weight Loss Bitch’…the day I am just called a ‘bitch’ instead of a ‘fat bitch’ will be the day that I know I have cracked my weight loss! With many reasons to lose this weight I am documenting my journey for a number of reasons. Firstly, I would like to keep a record of the ups and downs, the highs and lows, and the challenges I face with such an enormous task to tackle. Secondly, I would also like to inspire and encourage other people who are in a similar situation and to show them that significant amounts of weight can be lost naturally…with a bit of motivation, hard work, dedication and will power. Thirdly, all of the blogging, Facebook-ing, Tweet-ing, Pinterest-ing and YouTube-ing keeps me occupied and keeps my fingers out of the fridge!