My hard work and effort has not been recognised by the ‘Lord of Lard’ or the ‘Goddess of Girth’ today and my 32nd birthday will have to be celebrated with me at over 30st instead of just under it! Oh well…it will actually be the first time since I was about 8 or 9 that my weight will be less than my age…sounds crazy really. I know that I was a big kid – by the age of 15 I was over 18st and I cannot remember a time that I would have weighed less than my age…definitely in my primary school years…definitely maybe?!
Anyway, I had a little epiphany moment when driving to the shops after weigh-in group. It was the first time that I had not felt too disappointed when expecting (hoping) for a real result and not getting it. I lost 1.5lbs, taking me down to 30st 3.5lbs, giving me a total loss now of 13st 2lbs. Yet given the exercise I have done this week…I have sweated out more than that! But I was genuinely not fussed. Maybe slightly fussed, but not the temper tantrums and pouting that I usually do. Maybe I am growing wiser as I near old age! Haha!
Seriously though, I think I am accepting that this journey is more than just about the numbers. I know that exercise will need to form part of my life moving forwards, so why not just get on with it now? So what if my muscles hold onto a bit of water…if I were them I would be clinging onto a life raft wondering what the hell was going on! They have gone from the comfy softness of a sedentary lifestyle spent lolling on an oversized ‘love chair’ (which I think are built for people to cuddle up on…but does me nicely on my own thank you very much…I might allow my other half to perch a buttock on the armrest!) to the mean streets of ‘Star Trac’…my big old treadmill. I am going to give myself a break and recognise everything that I have achieved. And I am going to get my oversized bum out of my oversized chair and into my oversized leggings and onto my oversized treadmill tomorrow…in order to become normal sized!
Group was great this morning. My lovely consultant bought me this for my birthday…
…I was really touched by it, especially when she said something along the lines of each flower bud representing my progress and how far I have come. I nearly cried…which I don’t do often! I had awful garlic breath though so gave her a quick hug and left!
And her lovely hubby also noticed that the design of the certificates he made for me had changed since the last time he made them for someone…so he updated them and gave me new ones today! Honestly – they are such lovely people, I cannot tell you how lovely!
So there you can see my little loss and my two new, updated and modernised, certificates! I am still considering the wrist tattoo idea…even though I am a bit of a wimp…I wonder if he could make my 20st and my 30st certificate in a colour I like so that I could get my butterflies the same colour as the weight awards?!
Pizza Lady was on form with some stupendous comments again…one of which was thinking that you could make a whole garlic bread baguette for 3 syns…bless her heart; group certainly would not be the same without her! My consultant joked that she would love to follow Pizza Lady’s plan for a week…I think I’d be back to square one again if I did! And it won’t be the same without a couple of ladies who recently joined but are moving to another of my consultants groups due to a new job. They are lovely, and the younger one is really sweet to me! She has managed to lose a good chunk in her first month and is looking fab – she looked gorgeous anyway and has a figure that I would be more than pleased to have now.
We are also losing another lady too. If I am being brutally honest, I won’t miss her as she annoys me! She is one of the bigger ladies and could do so well, yet there is always an excuse of some sorts…and more often than not, she has already given us her excuse before our consultant has finished reading her results out. “thekidshavebeenoffschoolIhadaheadache/cold/virus/fever/pain” and “theinlawshavebeenstayingitistheantibioticsIhaventfeltlikeeating” are my favourite excuses! I admire that she keeps coming to group, and I do realise that I am a fine one to talk – hypocrite, moi?! She has been at that group for nearly as long as I have though and I reckon she could have been nearing target by now. I know life gets in the way and that it can be hard to lose weight, but I also know how hard being fat bloody is…and I know which hard I prefer. I just wish I was allowed to shake her to make her realise what an opportunity she has!
My sister came to group too…and put on 0.5lbs but had only weighed in on Friday morning with a loss of 4lbs. We all know how our bodies fluctuate and so I think this is the reason for the small gain as I know she has been working hard with her food! It was so sweet when she arrived, as my nephew was with her and when he saw me, his eyes lit up and he ran over shouting my name (or his version of my name) and wanted a big hug – so cute; it is lovely to feel wanted.
There we go then – another great morning at group…I really look forward to going each week!
Today has been fairly sedate. I woke up early – well, I was woken up at 3am by the dog who was throwing up – and then again by the birds at 5am…and then by the alarm at 7.30am! I grabbed a shower and then got on with my little work project for my other half, and then we headed to group, to the shops, to the horses and then back to the shop as we had forgotten dog food. I then went and caught up with my sister and the kids for a couple of hours before heading home for a positively lazy afternoon…it was blissful, but time doesn’t half fly!
Wow – I have been a fat piggy this evening! I am stuffed from my delicious dinner…and still have a burger left over! Brekkie and lunch, and dinner really, are all self-explanatory – and delicious…perfect replacement for my KFC cravings.
Exercise: A total blissful day of rest and it has been heaven…but I know this has to end sometime; at about 7.50am tomorrow in fact!
Thank you for reading my lovelies and I hope that the ‘losers’ amongst you have a great result this week,
Weight Loss Bitch xxx