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Thoughts for this wonderful Thursday…

Even though it sounds and is quite disgusting, it is good fun to time your farts in bed at night for when the fan blows past…as it then blows onto your other half, sending you into fits of giggles whilst he chokes in your cloud of fart fumes.

Deciding to have chicken for lunch and dinner is not a good idea when the chicken has gone off…before it’s use by date. Yet turning the situation around without having a major food tantrum is a great idea! The chicken and white bean soup became lentil, white bean and veggie soup instead; and the basil and tomato chicken with Mediterranean veggies and syn free chips became everything but the chicken…with Quorn lamb strips thrown in. A bit of progress…I would usually have had a right strop!

Checking on Confused.com is a great idea on a Thursday morning. I have managed to save nearly £400 and will finally be able to wave ‘goodbye’ to Shitecover.com…sorry, Swiftcover.com! However not having protected no claims when I have my accident was a bad idea as it has pushed any premium right up.

Leggings rarely, if ever, look good on anyone over a size 14. My Dad subtly asked me the other day if I had anything that wasn’t quite so clingy around the bottom of legs. My reply was, not really – unless I want to shop at a men’s plus size outlet for thick winter weight jogging bottoms, or spend over £60 on the trousers from the Dawn French Sixteen47 collection…which ride up my legs, showing my swollen and fat granny ankles to the world whilst making it look as if my arse is hungry and wants to digest my trousers. So whilst I accept that this Thursday Thought is a valid one, I am going to stick with my black pudding-esque high waisted leggings from Simply Be!

Another legging related observation is that when it looks as if you are wearing tights and not leggings, you either need to give the Primarni specials a miss, or buy a bigger size.

When you try and meditate and focus on your breathing, it feels as if you need to be conscious of breathing…and that it just won’t happen naturally. I get more stressed about trying to breathe than I was before starting the meditation! Needless to say, the meditation exercise that I attempted in order to help me sleep last night was not successful.

People who think of themselves as ‘serious’ bloggers really irritate me at times. I have seen so many tweets from people saying stuff like, “I can’t believe fellow bloggers don’t know xxx” – we aren’t given a fecking manual when we start…and some of us just want it as a way of recording our journey…not to make money or to have constant special offers in order to drive new readers towards our words of wisdom! Oh, and there is a little phenomenon known as ‘conflict of interest’…so when I read your reviews about how excellent a product is – a product that you have been given for zilch to review – I may just be a little skeptical! Instead of having a dig at fellow bloggers, how about helping them – just a Thursday Thought! I am all for helping people and for spreading love, and I am sure that most bloggers are wonderful – a bit like a bunch of grapes though…always a sour bugger that is full of pips!

Feeling skinny when you still weigh over 29st is a crazy thought! All of this healthy – or healthier than it used to be – food is making me feel alive. Add to this the exercise, and when I step off the treadmill I sometimes feel all svelte…until I walk past the mirror, or until my other half records a post-workout video of me. There is still such a long way to go! Although I was told at group this week that I looked vibrant and alive…the alive bit is probably a good thing…alive is good – I’ll take that as a compliment!

How do you unfollow someone on Twitter who seems like a crazy, yet seems to have everyone else fooled? Does this mean that I am the crazy? I have seen more problems from this ‘crazy’ than you would find in all past seasons of Jeremy Kyle. Yes, I like to support – but not when any attempts at support are ignored…I guess some people just like drama. As a person who won’t admit that they like to be liked – oops, outed myself there – I guess I don’t like to unfollow as I wouldn’t like it happening to me…although after this blog post I will probably lose a few! It isn’t about the numbers, it is about the arrow through my heart…rejection is an emotion that I do not deal well with. Ask my now gay ex…I think I called him 52 times in a single day when he was ignoring me…well, I think the vodka and tequila I had consumed was clouding my judgement slightly. In fact, I think it clouded my judgement throughout the relationship!

Seeing life through the eyes of a kid is great fun. I have been helping to colour in a cardboard box today, to make a home for something called a ‘Pillow Pet’, which included poking holes in the box so that it could breathe. If it had started breathing at any point, I would have been out of there! I also found out that my niece only just realised that her goldfish had died…six days after it had happened. Apparently she was too busy with ‘nursery stuff’ to notice. My nephew is already learning how to get his own way, and I now have to negotiate with him…usually by pausing Peppa bloody Pig until he does what I have asked – not sure that this kind of behaviour is in the parenting manual…but it works! Oh, and the simplicity of being given a picture by them put a real smile on my face…

My final Thursday Thought is that it is so lovely to catch up with people that you haven’t seen in a while. I have text a friend I used to work with and am hoping to catch up with her soon…she might come and have one of my infamous BBQs or picnics at the stables! So send a few text messages to people you haven’t spoken to in a while…it will give you something nice to focus on.

Right then – after those rather random musings, let’s look at the usuals…

I woke up really early and had a conversation in my mind about whether or not I could get away without exercising and having a day in bed. When my other half woke up however, I broached the subject and he just muttered something about “that PMT you are always on about”…he meant PMA – I don’t get PMT thanks to my tablets…but am still a moody cow at times according to him! So I just got up and got on my treadmill, worked on his project, headed to see the horses, to the shops, to pick up a prescription and then headed off for an afternoon and evening of babysitting. It was a delight to look after them, and I managed to have a dinner battle win with my nephew…he ate all his veggies and cleared his plate, which is a real rarity. This was probably helped by the fact that I was shovelling it in, and he was on a promise of Peppa Pig and “cuggles” as he calls our hugs! A quiet, and very brief, night beckons as I don’t get home until fairly late from looking after them.

Breakfast: Banana and two mini HiFi bars (1 x HEB).

Lunch: White bean, lentil and veggie soup with two Ryvita (1 x HEB).

Dinner: Syn free chips, roasted veggies and Quorn lamb strips with cheese (2 x HEA).

Snacks: Two packets of Snack a Jacks (9 syns) a yogurt and a Special K biscuit bar (5 syns).

I managed to avert the food disaster but my meals weren’t exactly as planned today. The soup was okay, but probably not one that I would make again – it had spinach, onion, garlic, celery and grated carrots, along with mixed herbs, a stock cube, some red lentils and a tin of butter beans…it was a bit ‘meh’ – so maybe won’t be making this one again. Dinner was just a load of veggies fried off with syn free chips and some Quorn lamb strips. I was a bit naughty at my sisters and raided her cupboard – only had a yogurt and a biscuit bars which was within my syns, but I try not to snack between meals…I think I am just overtired…like a child!

Exercise: 2 x 30 minute treadmill session and 1 x 15 minute BodyPump / Swiss Ball session.

Today was nice and sweaty! I do think that I need to invest in some sweat bands for my wrists and head…I am a sweaty mare and keep having to wipe my arms off when I am treadmilling. I also did a section of my BodyPump DVD standing up…last time I attempted this I managed a couple of minutes and my back was in immense pain…progress is great!

Thanks for reading my lovelies, and feel free to share some Thursday Thoughts on my FB page if you want to…

Weight Loss Bitch xxx

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WeightLossBitch

On a health and fitness driven journey to lose over 32st / 448lbs / 203kgs – yes, it is a considerable amount – I am committed to losing my excess weight without the aid of weight loss surgery, diet pills, or quick fixes…as there aren’t any! Changing my eating habits and building up my fitness levels, along with addressing the ‘head issues’ will be crucial in order for me to achieve my goal. Living in England as a 31 year old super morbidly obese woman can be challenging to say the least. I have been shouted at in the street and verbally abused far too many times to mention; hence the name ‘Weight Loss Bitch’…the day I am just called a ‘bitch’ instead of a ‘fat bitch’ will be the day that I know I have cracked my weight loss! With many reasons to lose this weight I am documenting my journey for a number of reasons. Firstly, I would like to keep a record of the ups and downs, the highs and lows, and the challenges I face with such an enormous task to tackle. Secondly, I would also like to inspire and encourage other people who are in a similar situation and to show them that significant amounts of weight can be lost naturally…with a bit of motivation, hard work, dedication and will power. Thirdly, all of the blogging, Facebook-ing, Tweet-ing, Pinterest-ing and YouTube-ing keeps me occupied and keeps my fingers out of the fridge!