As it’s Hallowe’en I thought that I would discuss the rather scary subject that my other half and I were taking about last night……babies! Obviously I am being a little facetious when I say that babies are scary…but there is a small element of truth in that for me!
Babies are a joy – and I know many people who are on a weight loss journey in order to help with fertility issues and I sincerely hope that each and every one of them achieve their dreams. However, babies have never been on my agenda. As a teenager my friends and I would talk about careers but above all else they wanted to be successful Mums. I had absolutely no desire to have children…I just wanted to spend time with horses and the thought of having a baby was weird…I thought it would be like a little alien in there!
My sister was recently contemplating trying for a third baby. She has one girl and one boy and was overjoyed to be gifted with them, but is missing having a baby I think. So the other day she was trying to convince my other half and I to have a baby…and she offered to look after it whilst it was still baby-sized! The look on my other half’s face was priceless. We had both agreed fairly early on in our relationship that neither of us wanted kids, but I had told him about the fact that I have always said that I would foster or adopt. I think that there are so many children out there in need of support, guidance and stability…so I am very pro fostering and adoption.
Last night – during the ad breaks in Made In Chelsea – I thought it would be a good idea just to check that we were still on the same page! What a programme choice though…the cheating and bitching on there is enough to put anyone off the idea of baby-making.
I have found that a lot of people find it strange that I don’t want children; as if my sole purpose for being is to have a child. I have been told that it is selfish. I have been told that it is weird. I have been told that I would regret not having one. My argument is that it would be more selfish to have one if I didn’t want one…and what if I regretted having one…you can’t really send them back where they came from, can you?!
So I asked my other half what he thought. “Don’t you feel that you aren’t doing your duty?”, I asked…tongue firmly in cheek. “Don’t you feel selfish?”…”What if you regret it?”…”Is it because you don’t want to grow up?”…”Is it because you don’t want the responsibility?”…and the onslaught of questions continued during each ad break before we burst out laughing!
I think we can safely say that having a baby is not on my wish list. I love my niece and nephew to bits – and I do adore kids…I just have no desire to have my own. My child time is spent having fun with my niece and nephew and seeing them grow and develop, and this is amazing. I have spent time with plenty of the babies my Mum fosters…yet I have never had that ‘clucky’ feeling that other women talk about. Generally, I am happy to hand them back over and head home!
Then there is the issue of whether or not I would be able to have one anyway. I have a lot of ‘women’ issues with cancerous cells being dealt with by hormone medication and I have been in this situation for a few years now. I also have PCOS; I am not really in prime baby-making condition anyway. So I suppose I wouldn’t want to want one in case I couldn’t get pregnant. I have seen friends going through fertility treatment and it is an all-consuming and, at times, heartbreaking process.
Plus I have so much to look forward to and so many plans…none of these plans have ever included the thought of a baby…so I think that I am probably just going to rest assured that my other half and I are definitely on the same page…definitely maybe!
My other half has just said, “Obviously having a baby is an amazing thing…but I think the novelty wears off”…he has a way with words that one!
Right then, now that I have cleared that issue up – sorry Mum…no grandchildren from my side, but I could cope with another horse! – I shall get on to the usuals…
Today has been good. A nice ‘present’ this morning has seen some Christmas shopping happening today and my other half finally got his iPhone 5S which he held off on to treat me to my MacBook Air. I worked this morning on his project, caught up with Jill T from HOOP, went to a friends for a catch up for a few hours and have finished the evening with a good productive conversation with Jessie P. So it has been a good day…but I missed the gym! I have only been twice and am already missing the place…scary! I am about to watch Bedlam and then will try and squeeze in an episode of Prison Break as I am loving it!
Breakfast: Banana and grapes.
A gorgeous food day today! It was a simple and quick breakfast followed by a lovely lunch. Chilli always tastes better the day after it has been made. Dinner was excellent…I use the Quorn Southern fried burgers (2.5 syns each) in place of KFC burgers and they taste fab. I am a greedy mare and so had two double deckers on my HEB rolls, with my HEA cheese and a tiny bit of Hellmann’s lighter than light mayo – which I allowed a syn for but is only 0.5 syns per tbsp and I didn’t have 2 tbsps. It really is a great replacement and I haven’t craved KFC since discovering these burgers…and it used to be a favourite.
Exercise: Nothing much at all today – a nice day to rest my muscles after yesterday’s workout!
Thank you for reading,
Weight Loss Bitch xxx