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My relationship with Jack Bauer is now over! :-(

Season 8 has been watched and concluded today…and I was a plonker who cried at the end! What am I going to do with my evenings now…maybe Breaking Bad on Netflix?

I have always loved escapism. A fantastic book is easily read by me in a day…I will stay up for hours to finish it as I can’t put them down! I have shelves full of Jeffrey Deaver, Harlan Coben, Lee Child, Ian Rankin – fantastic authors. The same happens with TV stuff too – Spooks, Homeland, Lost, Person of Interest, 24…I love them.

Some of my earliest memories involve books. I had a box set of Winnie the Pooh books, and read the Anne of Green Gables collection when I was really young…along with the Famous Five and Secret Seven…damn them and their midnight feasts!

I remember reading about midnights feasts and my cousins and I were staying at my Nan and Grandad’s house and decided to have one. The only problem was that my Nan used to stay up until 1am. I volunteered to stay awake, we stashed loads of biscuits, and they went to sleep with the promise that I would wake them up later. Somehow, I managed to stay awake…I tried waking them all up when Nan had gone to bed but they were having none of it, so I ate all of the biscuits myself and lay there all night with a terrible stomach ache! I should have taken some learning from that episode really!

As a teenager, I managed to freak my English Literature teacher out when she asked us to read a few paragraphs from our favourite book. I chose ‘Red Dragon’ and read the part where a man is superglued to a wheelchair, set on fire, and pushed down a hill. Her face was a picture! ;-)

It never crossed my mind to see this escapism as a bad habit. And it has only been over the past couple of days that I have looked at it in this way. Hiding away with a good book and getting lost in the plot is a pleasure. It can be relaxing and can help take your mind off your issues…in the same way that food can.

This might be a little bit ‘out there’ for some of you, and the rest will probably think that it is bollocks, but I am starting to wonder if I use TV and books in the same way that I use food…to avoid dealing with reality and my emotions. I would often put off a difficult decision by hiding away in my room with a book – I still do this now! Or I will stop my other half from asking me questions when I am watching a program…I did it today!

Putting down the books and turning off my TV is not going to happen though. I make it sound as if I am a couch potato, but I only watch a couple of hours in the evening – honestly! :-) I enjoy my escapism, and I think it can be a great way of distracting yourself from eating…it certainly works for me.

However, replacing one method of avoidance with another is not healthy I guess. So I am turning the TV off soon and am going to have the ‘chat’ that my other half wanted to have earlier…but Jack Bauer and his plight was more important at the time!

We all have our ‘things’ that take us away from reality. My other half loves his football and his club have been going through turmoil. I keep telling him that it is not real life and that the results of his team really won’t have an impact on him. This really isn’t the point though…the point is that we all need a bit of escapism.

So whilst I won’t be putting a halt to my reading, or my TV series, I am going to pay more attention to my emotions and whether or not I am using these things to avoid putting off decision-making. Bloody hell – this self development malarkey can be a real pain in the ass! ;-)

After all of that, I have just been watching Tom Kerridge making some wonderful food on TV whilst I have been writing. Food porn is definitely not a good way of distracting yourself…I have tried it – Man v Food, Triple D…and now this. Although it did make me chuckle…my Grandad once told me never to trust a skinny chef…he also told me never to trust a man with a coin purse! ;-)

Right then, let’s get on to the usuals…

I woke up feeling a bit fuzzy-eyed…I have an opticians appointment tomorrow to see if they can tell me what is going on with my peepers! The past few days have been a little strange with blurred vision etc. My other half is off to an event in London for the next couple of days, so I took him to get his hair cut! We also went and sorted out the neddies and popped to Asda too. It has been a quiet day really. I desperately want to get on and read some of my books for university, but my eyes aren’t ‘right’ so that’s been a bit pants really. Instead, I decided to clear out my wardrobe…I have so many lovely clothes from Dawn French’s ‘Sixteen 47′ range that I should really put on eBay. The problem is that I have hardly worn them – some are unworn – and really don’t want to part with them…but they are hanging off me now – so eBay it will have to be…unless you know anyone who wears their size 6 and is in the market for some new clobber! ;-)

Breakfast: Banana and an Alpen light (0.5 x HEB).

20131021-190419.jpgLunch: Leftover chicken and butternut squash curry with a wholemeal pitta (1 x HEB).

20131021-190504.jpgDinner: Thai spiced salmon and butternut squash stir fry.

20131021-190553.jpgSnacks: Cheese (2 x HEA, Alpen light (0.5 x HEB), Nakd bar (8 syns) and a packet of Snack a Jacks (4.5 syns).

20131021-190656.jpgA good food day! Brekkie was quick and simple and lunch was just leftovers stuffed into a pitta bread. Dinner was so easy and quick too – salmon sprinkled with Thai spices and microwaved, then a box of the Asda butternut squash stir fry with some added garlic, ginger, soy sauce and Thai spices…it was ready within 7 minutes! My snacks were a bit strange today…it felt like I had eaten loads but it wasn’t really satisfying as I ate them during the day…so had nothing to snack on in the evening and I felt a bit hard done by! ;-)

Exercise: Not much at all today.

Thank you for reading – weigh in tomorrow…I wonder what that will bring?!

Weight Loss Bitch xxx



On a health and fitness driven journey to lose over 32st / 448lbs / 203kgs – yes, it is a considerable amount – I am committed to losing my excess weight without the aid of weight loss surgery, diet pills, or quick fixes…as there aren’t any! Changing my eating habits and building up my fitness levels, along with addressing the ‘head issues’ will be crucial in order for me to achieve my goal. Living in England as a 31 year old super morbidly obese woman can be challenging to say the least. I have been shouted at in the street and verbally abused far too many times to mention; hence the name ‘Weight Loss Bitch’…the day I am just called a ‘bitch’ instead of a ‘fat bitch’ will be the day that I know I have cracked my weight loss! With many reasons to lose this weight I am documenting my journey for a number of reasons. Firstly, I would like to keep a record of the ups and downs, the highs and lows, and the challenges I face with such an enormous task to tackle. Secondly, I would also like to inspire and encourage other people who are in a similar situation and to show them that significant amounts of weight can be lost naturally…with a bit of motivation, hard work, dedication and will power. Thirdly, all of the blogging, Facebook-ing, Tweet-ing, Pinterest-ing and YouTube-ing keeps me occupied and keeps my fingers out of the fridge!

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