First of all, waking up earlier than usual and doing a wee into a cup is not a great move when the bathroom lightbulb has blown. I know where the wee comes out, and I know where the cup should have been…but it didn’t go according to plan! 
I took the aforementioned wee sample to the diabetic nurse for my review. This is where things started to go wrong. She was incredibly bright and breezy – too much for first thing in the day really – and went through all of the information she wanted to impart…whether I already knew that information or not. In fact, she lost me when she described Metformin as being like a tractor – seriously, a fecking tractor…at this point she was talking in a voice more suitable to an audience of nursery children.
This was not helped by her room smelling like someone had been to the toilet in the middle of it! She had been overly liberal with the air freshener and I was gagging. She assured me that she was not responsible for the smell…
Even the injections she gave me – flu and pneumonia – were done in a bright and breezy manner. It wasn’t until she started to credit the medication for my weight loss that I began to feel my ‘levels’ rising. I casually shoehorned into the conversation how annoyed I got with the consultant, who also shared these views, so annoyed in fact that I wanted to strangle him. She soon steered away from that subject. When I pointed out that I know many diabetics who are also on the same medication – and same doses – but that are not losing weight, and some are even gaining weight, she didn’t really have an option but to enquire about my lifestyle changes.
Fecking finally! YES! I have changed my lifestyle beyond belief…this is not something that a bloody tablet can do for you. I thought that the medical profession would be a little bit more informed when it comes to ‘miracles’! 
Anyway, she soon started to share my views and has booked me in for a review with the Doctor to see if I can come off even more of the medication – under supervision – and see how things go. Good news. I don’t want to take tablets that I don’t need. She had sat there and praised my cholesterol, my bloods, my blood pressure…and so I just wonder if I can try and see what happens if I don’t take the medication. Although, despite my size I have never had blood pressure or cholesterol issues so I am thinking that not much will happen at all. They are thinking that my weight will soar because, if course, my loss is all down to a fecking tablet.
After this delightful (can you sense the sarcasm?!) meeting I quickly popped home before group to rustle up dinner and lunch for tomorrow’s trip as I knew I wouldn’t have much time this evening to do that. I felt super organised!
Then it was time for my weigh in. I have to say that I was mighty disappointed. I lost 1.5lbs. I wanted more – simple really. This week has been great in terms of my food, my mood and my exercise…so I felt on top of the world until I saw those bloody numbers. Whilst I can focus on all of the good – and yes, before you accuse me of being a moaning old cowbag, I appreciate that it is a loss – but when you stick to plan and visit the gym seven times I think it was…1.5lbs is a bit measly! As I was reminded though, I have still lost 17st 4.5lbs…not too shabby, but I still have over 15st to lose, so forgive me if I get peed off!
Nothing that anyone could say made a difference. Yes, I know my muscles will be holding water. Yes, I know that by now I am probably building muscle. I know that my mood has improved and that I feel great. I know that I will be toning. I have even been told that bone density increases when you start exercising which can affect weight. Even though I know all of these things in my rational mind, my irrational mind keeps thinking about my ‘under 25st for Christmas’ goal…and with only five more weigh ins until then…who knows?!
Group was great – and I will write a blog post later in the week dedicated to something we discussed…intriguing! I even got a hug from Pizza Lady!
At this point in the day I was a bit apprehensive. I had to squeeze in an aquafit session before getting ready very quickly and racing across town for the Slimming World talks…I am not sure if I was apprehensive about the talks, or just worried as I am a stickler for timeliness and didn’t want to be late!
As it turned out, I arrived in plenty of time!
I met so many lovely people tonight…all of whom are trying to make positives changes – some of whom have been at target for varying lengths of time and look fabulous. It was amazing just to meet everyone. I do love my Slimming World group, and the people in tonights groups were fantastic too.
My plan had been to be all cool, calm and collected…and for the most part, I was! I did get a little bit emotional though in the last talk as I was talking about how passionate I was in terms of helping people and that I just didn’t want people to get to the stage that I did. I managed to talk for an hour in each group, and took some questions too…so three hours of talking all about me…bliss!
There were questions about temptation and do I ever get tempted – of course! I just make a choice though…the taste of that food for a second or two, or the feeling of staying on track. I got questions about how I dealt with going from all I used to eat, to what I eat now. Slowly but surely was the response…and not trying to go from a sinner to a saint overnight. I was asked about how much my food used to cost. I was asked all sorts of stuff – how to stay on track at target…which got me thinking, as I have never been at target! Goal and mini goal stuff…seriously – it was such a great night, with some fantastic people.
I don’t really get phased in these situations as I have been involved in a lot of presentations with work…but it did feel a bit weird when it was such a personal subject. Also, knowing that a few people in there had read my blog was strange…all of my secrets! I am pretty sure though that I was just as straightforward as I usually am!
One shock was seeing an old family friend – a lady who has known me from a kid. She had been told I had been going, but had no idea that I was ‘her’…so it was great to see her again and I hope to catch up properly soon.
My Mum and other half were there too – my support group…they are bloody ace! My other half was even tweeting from my account…bless him; he always have to have some sort of gadget and social media related involvement!
I was then asked by the new consultant who is taking over at that group if I would talk at her other groups too…so watch this space!
Anyway…I am starting to flag now – and have a stonking headache, so I will cut this one short with the promise of normal service resuming in a day or so. Tomorrow is my Jessie Pavelka stuff, so it will be another long day!
Breakfast: Bananas.
Lunch: Burgers (2 x HEA, 2 x HEB and 4 syns).
Dinner: Leek, potato and carrot soup.
Snacks: Velvet Crunch (24 syns).
An okay food day – a bit hurried, so no culinary delights! Brekkie was a one before and one after weigh in affair. Lunch was grabbed quickly before aquafit – the Asda meatfree burgers with tomato, spinach and my cheese. Dinner was stuck in the slow cooker for when I got back from my Slimming World talks – leeks, onion, potato, carrots, garlic, chicken stock…and snacks were grabbed in between sessions.
Exercise: 30 minutes of aquafit.
Thank you for reading!
Weight Loss Bitch xxx
WeightLossBitch
On a health and fitness driven journey to lose over 32st / 448lbs / 203kgs – yes, it is a considerable amount – I am committed to losing my excess weight without the aid of weight loss surgery, diet pills, or quick fixes…as there aren’t any! Changing my eating habits and building up my fitness levels, along with addressing the ‘head issues’ will be crucial in order for me to achieve my goal. Living in England as a 31 year old super morbidly obese woman can be challenging to say the least. I have been shouted at in the street and verbally abused far too many times to mention; hence the name ‘Weight Loss Bitch’…the day I am just called a ‘bitch’ instead of a ‘fat bitch’ will be the day that I know I have cracked my weight loss! With many reasons to lose this weight I am documenting my journey for a number of reasons. Firstly, I would like to keep a record of the ups and downs, the highs and lows, and the challenges I face with such an enormous task to tackle. Secondly, I would also like to inspire and encourage other people who are in a similar situation and to show them that significant amounts of weight can be lost naturally…with a bit of motivation, hard work, dedication and will power. Thirdly, all of the blogging, Facebook-ing, Tweet-ing, Pinterest-ing and YouTube-ing keeps me occupied and keeps my fingers out of the fridge!
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