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I would like you to meet an old friend of mine…the buffet plate.

This friend and I used to have a riot at this time of year! And this friend wasn’t taken on a solo outing…he made multiple appearances.

Group was fantastic this week. I did touch on it earlier in the week, but didn’t have time to do it justice. So I thought that I would fill you in on my revelations!

In a nutshell – which is ironic, as I used to love a good bag of Christmas nuts! – we were discussing party food. That beige sea of synfulness that I could never get enough of. My consultant had decorated some party plates and we had to choose what we would have. As you can see, my plate was quite full – 4 x sandwich quarters, 2 x chicken drumsticks, 2 x mini samosas, 2 x mini pork pies, 2 x mini vol-au-vents, 2 x mini sausage rolls, a big dollop of dip, cheese and biscuits, and 2 x mini scotch eggs. I did enquire whether this was an ‘in front of people’ plate, or an ‘at home party’ plate…I went for the at home party option, as I was generally more reserved when eating in front of strangers.

We then had to guess the syns in what we were eating. I assumed that I would use my HEB for the sandwich and guessed the syns in the rest of it. My guesstimate was 40 syns. The actual figure would have been far closer to 100 syns…and my HEB would only cover one slice of bread in a ‘proper’ sandwich!

The biggest shocker for me was the mini pork pies. 10 syns each! I have no idea why I was so shocked, as I knew they were incredibly high in fat and calories – and weird bits from pigs – but I must have gone into some sort of ‘I am ignoring this’ kind of trance when I ate this kind of food. When I was binging regularly, a six-pack of mini pork pies with Branston pickle was a regular addition to my shopping bag. So in that one item alone I was consuming 60 syns…approximately 1200 calories.

This was on top of the multipack of McCoys, the six sausage rolls, a family pack of chocolate, and a takeaway…no wonder I got so fecking fat really!

This is still one of the elements that I struggle with. I knew that these foods were terribly high in calories and full of crap – I knew this but I ate it anyway. Yet I am focused on moving forwards, not looking at what used to be.

However, the beige party food plates were interesting.

If you look at the picture of the plate again you will see a few words written at the bottom. These are honest and genuine words…this would have been one plate of many. Especially at Christmas. I would prepare a big buffet for family. As I was preparing I would obviously have to taste one of every item to make sure it was okay. Then I would have a decent plate. This would be followed by another decent plate, and another. Then I would pick at little bits over the course of an evening. And then out would come the Tupperware…which would mean packing away the leftovers…of course there was always a bit of food that wouldn’t fit in the boxes…but those bits would easily fit into my mouth! And then it would be buffet food for breakfast the following day!

So yes, revelations in a way…but if I am being honest then I already knew this food was crap and full of calories and nasties that piled on the pounds along with increasing low moods and self esteem.

In terms of Christmas parties there are generally better choices that can be made – but you know this, just as I knew what I was doing when I ate all of the crap stuff. You can also take your own dishes…but you know this too. My point is that you have a choice. You can choose to stay in control whether you eat this food or not. You can be in control and decide not to eat it. You can be in control and choose to eat lots of it. Whichever choice you make, own it and enjoy it.

Today has been strange really. I woke up feeling weird – probably from the injections. However I decided as this was a manufactured illness that I would just carry on as usual. So my head has been weird and fuzzy all day. I got up and did some work before heading to my aquafit class. Then we checked on the horses and popped to Asda. Then I caught up with a lovely lady who has something that I will be able to offer to you for the festive season…watch this space…intriguing! I went to see my sister and brother in law and the kids. I got a lovely school photo of the two of them – it’s so bloody cute. They also gave me a bookmark so that if I am reading at university and get bored, their picture will make me smile! Then I came home, made dinner, had a catch up with a friend and am watching some of the last few episodes of Prison Break…the end is nigh!

Breakfast: Banana porridge (5 syns).

Lunch: Black pepper scrambled eggs on toast (2 x HEB) with spinach and leftover leek, carrot and potato soup.

Dinner: Linda Mc sausages, rice (2 syns) and cheesy peasy spinach (2 x HEA).

Snacks: Fruit, Total Greek and rice cakes (7.5 syns).

A gorgeous food day! Brekkie was my usual porridge sachet made with water and a chopped banana. Lunch was my HEB rolls, toasted, with a decent amount of spinach topped with black pepper scrambled eggs. I then had a bowl of the leftover soup which had been made with leeks, carrots, onions, potatoes, stock and garlic. Dinner was immense. I had tried melted LowLow cheese on spinach earlier in the week when my other half buggered up the broccoli and cauliflower order! So I decided to try an experiment and used spinach, onion, tomatoes, mushrooms, peas, chilli flakes, garlic and curry powder. I cooked all of this and then stirred through the cheese. I had some Uncle Bens mushroom rice with mine and the Linda Mc sausages…it tasted gorgeous!

Exercise: 45 minutes of Aquafit and 20 minutes of aqua jogging and a few lengths of swimming.

Thank you for reading,

Weight Loss Bitch xxx

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WeightLossBitch

On a health and fitness driven journey to lose over 32st / 448lbs / 203kgs – yes, it is a considerable amount – I am committed to losing my excess weight without the aid of weight loss surgery, diet pills, or quick fixes…as there aren’t any! Changing my eating habits and building up my fitness levels, along with addressing the ‘head issues’ will be crucial in order for me to achieve my goal. Living in England as a 31 year old super morbidly obese woman can be challenging to say the least. I have been shouted at in the street and verbally abused far too many times to mention; hence the name ‘Weight Loss Bitch’…the day I am just called a ‘bitch’ instead of a ‘fat bitch’ will be the day that I know I have cracked my weight loss! With many reasons to lose this weight I am documenting my journey for a number of reasons. Firstly, I would like to keep a record of the ups and downs, the highs and lows, and the challenges I face with such an enormous task to tackle. Secondly, I would also like to inspire and encourage other people who are in a similar situation and to show them that significant amounts of weight can be lost naturally…with a bit of motivation, hard work, dedication and will power. Thirdly, all of the blogging, Facebook-ing, Tweet-ing, Pinterest-ing and YouTube-ing keeps me occupied and keeps my fingers out of the fridge!