…can you tell that my other half came up with that title…he says that people wanting to lose that amount of weight will see it and get some ideas from my blog!
I think it’s a bit naff…but as he’s the social media go to guy, I guess I had better pipe down for a change!
So then, a better result this week – by a tiny margin. 2lbs off, making 17st 8.5lbs in total…
I was happy because it meant my 17.5st award finally…this is the award that has taken the longest to bag! I was not happy as it still doesn’t seem to reflect my efforts. Maybe this is what weight loss is…fecking hard! I am still convinced that I am doing the right thing though – I got asked if I would consider surgery today…not a chance!
My consultant was pleased…she had dreamt last night that I had put weight on, and that she went and stood in the car park as she had no idea what to say to me. I had dreamt that I had been binging on mini sausage rolls…and was convinced when I woke up that I could taste them. I knew that I had none in the house though, so it was just a good dream…a ‘losers’ version of erotica!
I did laugh when she told me about her dream! She knows me so well…we often stay behind after group for a catch-up, or have mid-week chats, and she knows that all of the great advice she gives me gets stored for future use. She also knows that I do not listen to advice until I am ready to, and that I do my research and check out everything I am told. We chatted after group today about the fact that I hadn’t made changes immediately. My argument is that I need to let my body settle down…how will I know what really works if I keep knee-jerking when all my body needs is a break? She said that she was proud I had done it that way…had committed to seeing it through rather than throwing my toys out of the pram!
But it’s had seven bloody weeks now, so it’s time to make a change. I usually follow the Green and Original plans, as I tried Extra Easy initially but found that I struggled to eat meat – as I am not that keen on it – and I also found that my losses stalled. I am going to give it a go for a few weeks though and see if it shakes things up. Given that my aim is to increase my food intake, and that my weight means I can have upto 25 syns a day, I am going to follow Extra Easy with the addition of an extra Healthy Extra B choice. I would rather do this than use extra syns – a HE equates to 6 syns typically – but I don’t want to allow myself the syns as I want to keep away from too much junk food…so giving myself the option of the HEB choices keeps this a healthier, controlled method of increasing my intake…if that makes sense?
This was already my plan…and then during our conversation after group, my consultant suggested it too – she came out with the ‘great minds think alike’ line this time!
I tracked my calories in the gym yesterday and burnt 1106 during my workout. So I am clearly using a fair amount and it is likely – given all of the comments I get – that I need to increase my food intake, although I really do have big portions. I am definitely not stopping my workouts, so it’s the food that needs to change. So let’s hope that Extra Easy gives me a boost.
Group was good today. I found out some syns in stuff like Christmas cake – 8 for a tiny, tiny piece – and in individual Christmas puds – between 13.5 and 16. So those items are off my list. I could easily have eaten half a big Christmas pud in years gone by…I would rather not have any than have a small amount.
We also discussed tactics for the festive period. I was the only person planning to stay on track 100%…most were going for a middle of the road option. For me, I need to understand that I can have fun without food. One chap said that it would be a miserable Christmas without food…I am certainly not planning on not having food, far from it, but it will be food that helps me towards my goal. I love eating the food I do now, so again, it won’t be miserable. And who’s going to be the one with a grin on their face when I get a nice treat on the scales after Christmas?
Anyway, other than group, I had an interesting conversation with a TV producer today. She is looking for people who were in my situation for a Channel 4 documentary. I spoke to her to give my view as someone who had been there, and she picked my brains for a while. I have some info below that she sent me, as she would like to know if any of you are interested in taking part…
‘Channel 4 seeking contributors for a documentary series about housebound obesity:
– Are you housebound due to severe weight gain (BMI 50+) and are looking for help?
– Are you housebound and have been refused bariatric surgery or are on the waiting list and are looking for an alternative?
– Perhaps you refuse to leave the house for psychological reasons related to your weight gain and want support to step outside again?
We are developing a documentary series and would like to hear from you. We’d also like to hear from carers/partners who are struggling to look after a housebound loved-one and are looking for help.
The series will by supported by a team of dedicated medical professionals who are all specialists in treating obesity.
All initial conversations will be for research purposes and will not be made public at this stage.
For any further information and to get in touch, please contact – Erica at: firstname.lastname@example.org or on 020 3150 0777 (Ext: 2724)’
I spent time chatting with Erica and am hoping to work with her during the series to provide support from the perspective of someone who has been there and is making progress. If you are interested, then please contact Erica…I have no involvement at this stage other than spreading the word!
My other half is clearly missing the thought of not blogging…and sent me the following a few minutes ago…
“Hi, it’s OH – thought I’d chop in again. I’m very happy about WLB getting her 17.5st Slimming World award after losing 2lbs today. I was waiting on the weekly text message from her, slightly concerned that I was going to beat her with my 2lbs weight loss!
It’s been a long time coming and was getting concerned about the impact the exercise was having on her weight loss. After the last few weeks 2lbs is definitely in the right direction.
On a separate I note, I mentioned to you last week in this blog that I have a fondness for KitKat Chunky’s. I got a four-pack from the shop yesterday and had only intended to have one a day. Unfortunately I polished off the whole pack today! Moving forward if I want a chocolate bar I’m just going to buy one individual bar. Temptation is a killer!
I nipped into the shops today and saw a lady who looked bigger than WLB. That sounds very harsh doesn’t it? During WLB’s most darkest times though I don’t think there would have been many people in the UK bigger than her.
I was stood behind her in the line and her basket was full of junk food. Not one healthy thing. I judged her which I feel bad about. It could have been for someone else – just like WLB’s situation really. The junk is for me, the healthy stuff is for her.
I think if people see someone very overweight they just assume that they eat junk all the time and are not trying to do something about it. I think people have the perception that overweight people are lazy and will never change. I wanted to tell the lady about WLB’s blog and how anyone can lose weight if they are in the right frame of mind but it just wouldn’t have been appropriate. She could have lost a lot of weight like WLB and already be on her journey for all I know.
What this says to me is that you shouldn’t judge a book by its cover. I know that it’s easier said than done though!
If any of you ladies have partners who don’t need to lose weight and who need some tips on how to support you, feel free to leave a comment below this blog. I’m an expert in this field and know what to say and not to say to a partner desperately trying to lose weight. Maybe I will write a blog post on the subject for you all!
Sorry I’m taking over a bit aren’t I?
I’m just really excited about mine and WLB’s new life together which will make up for all the years of struggling on together!
Bless him…I say that a lot about him…bless him! I can tell you that he is still learning what to say and what not to say…he still drops a few clangers, but has made progress!
As for the rest of the day…I watched this little video about jelly beans…it was less than three minutes long but was pretty powerful stuff. If I can convince you to do one thing today, it would be to watch it! So check it out here if you ignored my last link!
On that note I will love you and leave you. Oh – I ballsed up again…I thought that my uni assignment was due at the end of January and had cleared my diary for a couple of weeks at the end of Jan…only to find out last night that it’s due on the 8th instead. So there goes Christmas, and my New Year holiday in Scotland will be spent reading books and writing assignments about solutions focused coaching versus cognitive behavioural coaching!
A good food day…the last of the Green days for a while! Brekkie was quick and grabbed on the way to group. Lunch was quick and eaten before heading off for Aquafit. Dinner was quick too – some mushrooms, red onion, green pepper, green beans and tomatoes added to some broccoli and cheese Pasta’n’Sauce, topped with my HEA of cheese.
Exercise: 30 minutes of Aquafit.
Thank you for reading,
Weight Loss Bitch xxx