I now weigh 25st 5.5lbs…so I still have a long way to go before I reach my target, but 2013 has been a fantastic year!
My mathematics leave a little to be desired, but I believe that this is a loss of 9.5st in a year and an average loss each week of 2.5lbs.
Back in June – on the 21st to be precise! – I wrote out twenty-one aims for the coming year…and I wondered how I was fairing with those aims given that I am six months in. So I thought, as I am in a reflective mood today, that I would share it with you…
1. Lose 200lbs – this I have done…252lbs have been lost so far!
2. Drive Freddie Freelander without the steering wheel touching my tummy – this has also been achieved.
3. Be able to comfortably wear my seatbelt – hmmm…I can wear it, but I am not comfortable so this one needs more work!
4. Reach my halfway point which is 227lbs lost or 16st 3lbs off – done this one.
5. Be able to take my niece into school on my own and my nephew to nursery – I haven’t done this yet, so I will be hijacking them in the New Year! 
6. Take my horse for a walk around the village, on foot – not done this one yet either…but could probably do it when I get back home…if you see a loose Welsh Cob trotting through your village, it could well belong to me! 
7. Walk the loop at Inchree Falls near Onich, Scotland – done this one back in September.
8. Get under the 25st marker point, the lowest I can remember being in years, at least 8 years! – I am close to this one…6lbs away!
9. Get under the 20st marker point…toughie…but that’s my aim for the next 12 months – 5st and 6lbs away from this one and I really, really want to get this before my birthday in June – as this is the weight I would like to be before I sit on and ride my Mums huge horse!
10. Walk the Nevis woods trail – argh…we had planned this today but the weather was shocking! Will see if we can squeeze it in before heading home.
11. Be able to do a 30 minute BodyPump session standing up – hmm…I haven’t tried, but I reckon I could – so watch this space!
12. Walk a mile unaided without stopping for a rest – yep, have done this too.
13. Have a ride on my Mum’s mare – see number 9…it all hinges on that magic number!
14. Brave a swimming pool, or more to the point, a swimsuit! – I have absolutely done this one…and I love it; best thing I have done this year I would say!
15. To be fit enough to join a gym – done this one too!
16. Be able to do the Christmas shopping in shops rather than online – hmm…I am not sure if I will ever like this one, as I hate the shops near Christmas…but I have done some shop-shopping instead of relying on the Internet!
17. To go into Asda on my own and do a big food shop – again…not sure that I like this one. It was more about having the confidence to go and do it – and I have been into Asda on my own. I just find it too tempting so prefer to send in my other half or do it online.
18. Go to the cinema – not done this yet…but might check out what is on when we get back home.
19. Take part in Race for Life – not done this either…I reckon that I would be fit enough to walk it this summer, so will see what venues and dates are local to me.
20. Have a weekend away…on a plane…scared of flying and not fitting into the seats, so this is a biggie! – I am now questioning my sanity in writing this one, as I really do hate flying. It would be interesting to see how far off I am from fitting into a plane seat though!
21. Be able to buy clothes from Evans / Simply Be…’normal’ plus size places instead of men’s plus size places! – yep, I can do this one too…
What a fabulous year!
I think one of the best things for me, and for those around me to see, has been the fact that my mojo for life is coming back. When I was 43st+ life just seemed so hard…I was barely existing and was functioning at the most basic of levels. My zest for life had gone and I was wondering how on earth I would ever scrape my way towards normality. It just did not seem at all possible.
Health issues aside – of which there were a few…type 2 diabetes, cancerous cells in my womb and endometrial hyperplasia, and polycystic ovary syndrome…all caused due to my fatness – it was the fact that the brightness and bubbliness that I was known for was disappearing. All of these health issues did not spur me on – in fact, they made me feel as if there was no way out…I had already made myself ill and so how the heck could I turn that around?
I was hiding myself away from friends and family, refused to go anywhere other than the horses and the Asda car park as I was worried about the things that people would say to me, and had just lost myself really. When I look back at pictures of me then, I feel so sorry for what I had become – not in a pity kind of way, but I can see that my eyes look dead…I look like I had given up.
So to think that I am now at one of the UKs top universities, have been public speaking again at Slimming World groups, have met some of the lovely people I connected with via my blog…it’s amazing. Yes, I have joined the gym and I go swimming, and I went on holiday and can hold my head up high now. Yes I am doing well from a health perspective and am turning those issues around. But more than this, I can feel the fire in my belly again – rather than just the copious amount of McDonalds that used to reside there! I feel alive, I feel positive, I can feel that there is more good stuff to come.
One of the most exciting prospects for me is that of being able to help and support others that have been where I have. And that doesn’t mean that you have to reach the same weight that I did…it’s all about how you feel, that desperation, that lack of hope, of not truly believing in yourself. I am already working with people who are seeing amazing changes – 2014 is looking very positive for them and me!
I do have goals for the coming year, and I am pondering resolutions for the coming year. Previous resolutions have always been about getting on a diet…but I am well on the way with that one, so will need to pull a different resolution out of the hat for 2014!
Whatever you might be getting up to this evening, have fun. Whatever has happened this year – good or bad – just put it behind you and focus on the future. Mr WLB and I are having a quiet night tucked away in our little cottage…we are a bit lightweight and will probably be asleep well before midnight!
Today has been rather sedate due to horrid weather. We headed into Fort William for a bit of food shopping, and ended up spending a fortune on Craghopper outdoor gear for Mr WLB – he is rather pleased with his new purchases. We stopped for our car picnic at a nice spot and were treated to a lovely rainbow…
…and then headed home for a cosy night in!
Breakfast: Chopped tomatoes with cheese on toast (HEA and 2 x HEB).
Lunch: A car picnic of pineapple, blueberries and hot smoked salmon!
Dinner: Scallops wrapped in smoked bacon with a warm salad.
Snacks: Smoked duck, Tyrrells spicy nuts (12 syns), and some fruit.
A good food day today. It started with toast, topped with cheese, topped with tomatoes…it is so simple, yet really filling and tasty. Lunch was a bit of a mish-mash. The jacket potato place was closed, and we were out and choices were limited. So I opted for the fruit and smoked salmon combo – which seems strange but actually tasted pretty good. Dinner was lush – scallops wrapped in smoked bacons with a warm salad of onions, tomatoes, mushrooms, spinach, garlic and pepper on top of bistro salad leaves…rather good. My snacks were nice too. The duck is so lean once you take the skin off, and tastes delicious. And the Tyrrells nuts tasted great…but were very spicy…I drank about a litre of water with them!
Exercise: Nothing much at all today.
Thank you for reading – and thank you so much for your support. I truly hope that 2014 brings you all that you wish for and deserve!
Weight Loss Bitch xxx
WeightLossBitch
On a health and fitness driven journey to lose over 32st / 448lbs / 203kgs – yes, it is a considerable amount – I am committed to losing my excess weight without the aid of weight loss surgery, diet pills, or quick fixes…as there aren’t any! Changing my eating habits and building up my fitness levels, along with addressing the ‘head issues’ will be crucial in order for me to achieve my goal. Living in England as a 31 year old super morbidly obese woman can be challenging to say the least. I have been shouted at in the street and verbally abused far too many times to mention; hence the name ‘Weight Loss Bitch’…the day I am just called a ‘bitch’ instead of a ‘fat bitch’ will be the day that I know I have cracked my weight loss! With many reasons to lose this weight I am documenting my journey for a number of reasons. Firstly, I would like to keep a record of the ups and downs, the highs and lows, and the challenges I face with such an enormous task to tackle. Secondly, I would also like to inspire and encourage other people who are in a similar situation and to show them that significant amounts of weight can be lost naturally…with a bit of motivation, hard work, dedication and will power. Thirdly, all of the blogging, Facebook-ing, Tweet-ing, Pinterest-ing and YouTube-ing keeps me occupied and keeps my fingers out of the fridge!
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