This was the message that made me chuckle after posting my dismal result at weigh in today!
0.5lbs…not the 1.5lbs I have been hating, which actually now seems like a decent loss…but a measly 0.5lbs. Without creating too graphic a scene in your mind, the average toilet visit produces a loss of more than 0.5lbs…not a happy WLB at all.
I needed 1lb to get my 17.5st award, so missed out on that too which rubbed salt in the wounds!
My fellow group members are lovely, and always try and make me feel better – but as I said last week, nothing they say makes me feel better. I understand the science behind weight loss and exercise. Not only have I read the books about nutrition, and have the posh education certificate to go with it, but I have been living and breathing it for years. I have had personal trainers, spoken with dieticians, nutritionists, psychologists, coaches…I have a wealth of information bombarding my poor brain and it gets too much at times…there is something to be said for blissful ignorance.
All I want is for my efforts to be rewarded. I have changed so much, and I am willing to change as I get closer to target. The biggest change recently is this exercise. Over the past couple of weeks I have been keeping an eye on the calories I am burning whilst doing it…the aquafit is coming in at approximately 1043 calories, the gym is coming in at 2550 calories, and the swimming is coming in at 1564 calories – grand total of 5157 calories, which equates to a deficit of 737 each day. Maybe I am not eating enough now?
This seems absurd. I eat big plates of food. If I have rice, it’s a whole sachet not just half. Same for couscous. When I have salmon it’s usually two pieces, or a whole packet of the salmon trimmings. Yesterday’s chicken curry had the meat from two chicken legs, a whole pack of button mushrooms, a whole pepper, a whole onion, a whole pack of green beans…all for me! If I have syn free chips then it will be at least two potatoes. Beans…a whole can. You get the picture…I do not scrimp on my portions. I make sure that I have plenty of Superfree though to keep the calories down, but I would say that I am averaging 1700 to 2000 of the little buggers a day. Not shoddy, definitely not starving myself, and it should be plenty to sustain my exercise.
But who cares really? A loss is a loss and I am over 17st bloody lighter, right?! I care…I care a lot. I have my goal in mind, I have my mini goals in mind and I am working like a bugger to reach them. If I continue to lose weight at this rate it will take me nearly eight years to reach my target. I have spent so many years overweight…I missed my teens and twenties…I really want to make some use of my thirties. This isn’t a violin moment or anything, I am just focused, doing what I need to, and I want the bloody results.
I know it will come good. One more week of doing this. Then the changes will come if they are needed. It is hard not to react instantly, but I need to keep tricks such as Success Express up my sleeve. I am religious over recording my food. I never deviate from the plan. I exercise. I don’t pick at food from the kids plates when I babysit…in fact, I even wash my hands after putting Nutella on their toast I don’t lick a syn of it off my finger! 
There is obviously an answer somewhere to be found. I will not let the weight loss surgery bunch get one over on me…the next time I see them, I want to be another couple of stone lighter – at least! 
Bless…my other half wants to chip in again…I think that ‘fame’ is going to his head – he thought that it was fantastic that people had read what he had written…he seems to forget that he’s written a book! Here he is…
“I really thought that WLB would have a big weight loss this week but unfortunately it wasn’t to be. The positive is that she has still had a loss and not put any weight on. The old WLB would have gone straight to McDonalds or KFC and binged herself senseless and it would have taken another month to get back on plan.
I ask her every week to send me a text message as soon as she has been weighed to let me know how she has got on. In a weird way it’s the highlight of my week waiting for the text. When it said 0.5lbs loss – very annoyed – I quickly headed to the kitchen and lit a cigarette thinking “Oh shit, it’s going to be interesting when she gets home!” Smoking is my vice and yep I know it’s bad for me and hopefully through WLB’s coaching I will be smoke free.
Thankfully she has taken it in her stride and said the slowed down weight loss the past few weeks will not let her lose sight of her goal of totally transforming her life around.
WLB has heard stories of people having not so good weight losses after being very good and then after weigh in they decided to binge for a few days afterwards which makes zero sense. What I would say to people who have struggled to have good losses is that you have to stick with it. You will get there! Remember it’s a lifestyle change that you want to implant into your life permanently.
We have decided to not alter any of WLB’s food as it can take six weeks to get used to exercise…roll on week seven.
If next week the numbers don’t go up maybe we will make some slight adjustments. We worked out with all her excercise she is burning around 5000 calories a week through blood, sweat and tears at the gym. Maybe her metabolism has had a shock and is holding onto the excess energy left over from the food that helps fuels her workouts?
Anyway enough about WLB and more about me…today is day 2 of my Slimming World week. Breakfast was the yogurt and oats combo of yesterday, so another 15 syns. Lunch was two pittas for my healthy B things, with veggie sausage, spinach and peppers, onion and tomatoes. I then had my Tuesday Treat which WLB always used to talk about, but doesn’t do so much now…
It was the return of the KitKat Chunky – 4 of them, so 50 syns. Dinner was the same as WLB, the meatballs, chips, mushy peas and mushrooms with onion and spinach.”
Bless him…he is liking his ‘insight’ moments. I had to laugh when I read about his reaction to the text…it tooks him bloody ages to reply and I just knew he would be sat at home wondering what to say!
So despite the weigh in results, I still went to the gym for my aquafit. I managed some work, had a good call with my coach, finished season 4 of Breaking Bad and started the final season…I kind of multitask and have it on in the background…permanently…as I am now addicted and worrying about it finishing!
Breakfast: HiFi bar (1 x HEB).
Lunch: Linda Mc sausages, scrambled eggs, fried onion, pepper, tomato and spinach with a wholemeal roll (1 x HEB).
Dinner: Swedish meatballs, syn free chips, mushy peas, mushrooms, onion and spinach.
Snacks: Squares (30 syns) and Babybel lights (2 x HEA).
Another good food day…but then, I am starting to wonder about that bit! Brekkie was a real quickie as I had forgotten to buy bananas. Lunch was lovely. The sausages tasted good with the veggie combo and a sausage batch can’t be beaten…unless it’s with bacon of course! Dinner was designed to deal with my faggots, mushy pea and chips craving – the Quorn Swedish meatballs make an okay replacement for faggots. I had my mushy peas, my syn free chips, and made a mushroom, onion and spinach combo for my superfree. The crisps were good…too many syns but as I keep getting told to eat more, I won’t lose any sleep over them!
Exercise: 30 minutes of Aquafit.
Thank you for reading,
Weight Loss Bitch xxx
WeightLossBitch
On a health and fitness driven journey to lose over 32st / 448lbs / 203kgs – yes, it is a considerable amount – I am committed to losing my excess weight without the aid of weight loss surgery, diet pills, or quick fixes…as there aren’t any! Changing my eating habits and building up my fitness levels, along with addressing the ‘head issues’ will be crucial in order for me to achieve my goal. Living in England as a 31 year old super morbidly obese woman can be challenging to say the least. I have been shouted at in the street and verbally abused far too many times to mention; hence the name ‘Weight Loss Bitch’…the day I am just called a ‘bitch’ instead of a ‘fat bitch’ will be the day that I know I have cracked my weight loss! With many reasons to lose this weight I am documenting my journey for a number of reasons. Firstly, I would like to keep a record of the ups and downs, the highs and lows, and the challenges I face with such an enormous task to tackle. Secondly, I would also like to inspire and encourage other people who are in a similar situation and to show them that significant amounts of weight can be lost naturally…with a bit of motivation, hard work, dedication and will power. Thirdly, all of the blogging, Facebook-ing, Tweet-ing, Pinterest-ing and YouTube-ing keeps me occupied and keeps my fingers out of the fridge!
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