Oh how I do love people who look at the positives!
I will get on to the Oxygen-Stealer shortly, but first I will cover my weigh-in and group today.
It was a good morning. This was the number that the scales decided to give me today…
My Mum lost 2.5lbs so I was thrilled for her too!
A rather lovely lady – that I met via the blog – popped into my group today. She was in the area on business and needed to weigh in somewhere, so I got to briefly catch up with her too which was lovely. I did chuckle…based on my musings and ramblings about Pizza Lady, she immediately knew who she was in group!
So it was a great morning, which was followed by a great session at the gym.
I had to quickly race home, pick up Mr WLB, head to the horses, then to the shops, and then home to grab lunch before babysitting for the afternoon and evening. I managed to squeeze in an update on Facebook and Twitter regarding my result this week.
As I was leaving the house to babysit, Mr WLB said, ‘I think there’s someone on Facebook that you need to ban…I am not happy with what she has said!’ Intrigued, I headed to my sisters and checked the iPad.
Now, it doesn’t matter what your achievement – a Masters degree, a new job, giving birth, a new house, recovering from an eating disorder…whatever – there will always be someone who focuses on the negative. That’s their issue. If their life is so bloody marvellous then I am happy for them.
I once had someone call me fat. Actually, this has happened on more than one occasion! I am never quite sure what response the individual is looking for when they make a statement like this. Do they want me to say, ‘Fuck, really…am I? And here I am trying to squeeze into size 8 clothes…that must be the problem…I am fat. Thank you so much for letting me know…I really had no idea!’ Are they just trying to engage in some kind of public service…goodwill…letting people know what is wrong with them because obviously I had no idea I was fat…am fat! It’s not like the fact that I can’t put fecking socks on without holding my breath, or that wiping my arse properly requires advanced project planning, is an indicator that all may not be right in the weight department!
So today I posted my update, and a rather kind soul decided that they would applaud me on my weight loss but then ask me how I could let myself get so fat…with – depending upon your perception – comment about keeping the weight off. A fair question perhaps…and one that I am happy to answer usually, but this is not the Daily Mail and I don’t accept comments from dickheads!
When I speak with the professionals who are supporting my journey, I answer this question – as they have a genuine professional interest. I answer their question in the hope that my response may give them a nugget of insight that might help them prevent someone reaching the stage that I did.
I talk about my weight gain and the reasons behind it throughout the blog for much the same purpose…to help prevent someone reaching that stage…or to support those that are and to try and give them a bit of hope that change is achievable.
I talk about my weight gain during the talks that I give, or with people who have had a weight issue…as they have an idea – regardless of how much they have had to lose – of the challenge that weight loss brings.
Of course I never wanted to reach that weight…but I did. It was not something that I aimed for. It was never discussed during a careers session at school. I didn’t train for it. But I reached 43st 5.5lbs…and I am fecking proud that I am dealing with it and am now 23st 13lbs. I am proud to weigh 23st 13lbs…which to some would seem horrific, but to me it feels amazing!
Call me harsh if you like – but I refuse to discuss the reasons behind my weight gain with an illiterate moron…
Nothing irritates me more than poor grammar – of which I am guilty of at times – but come on…if you are going to have a dig at someone, then bloody put some effort in to deserve that pedestal upon which you have placed yourself!
I am generally quite happy to answer people like this. Mr WLB always tells me to ‘delete’ and ‘ban’…but sometimes I like to seek, engage, and destroy! Although I will say that it is hard to argue with stupid…they kind of end up dragging you down to their level. But I responded…
Now, I don’t want to enter into a war…especially an unfair war…there is my massive weight advantage after all! If things progress I will just ‘delete’ and ‘ban’ as per Mr WLBs sensible advice. I certainly won’t be losing sleep over one person who could benefit from a dose of reality and the positive psychology I am ‘in to’.
I would far rather give my time and energy to the wonderful people that I know are rooting for me to succeed. Each and every week you give me support and I am so thankful for this. Genuinely – I am really touched that you take the time to send me a message of support…it means a hell of a lot and I hold on to that during the tough times.
As I said, there will always be detractors. It was this kind of person that made me hide away. It was this kind of person that convinced me that my only comfort was in the bottom of a carrier bag full of junk food. It was this kind of person that destroyed my confidence. So I am not going to let this kind of person get to me. I am going to focus on you – the kind of person who appreciates the fact that I am trying to change my life for the better…and trying to help others to do the same. The kind of person who appreciates that the past is in the past – but that it lurks and threatens to strike unless you stay strong. The kind of person that focuses on achievement…the positive.
That’s it from me today then really. A great day. Another great day. A day closer to that goal!
Breakfast: Banana and two egg rolls (2 x HEB).
An okay food day. I grabbed a quick brekkie to take to group, and as I knew that I was heading straight to the gym, I made sure that it was a little more substantial than my usual weigh-in day bananas. Lunch was lovely. Rice, tomatoes, peppers, onions, mushrooms, and Mexican spices…it was stew-like rather than the dry rice dish I had hoped for…but it was lush! Dinner was good too. Roast potatoes with cheese and similar veggies to the ones at lunch – tomatoes, onion, peppers, spinach, and mushrooms. And almost my full 25 syn allocation today…all used for Velvet Crunch! I know that one day I will have to stop these crisps…but it’s the one time each week that I allow myself my crisps…and whilst I am losing weight steadily, and am allowed the extra syns – the one benefit of being so fat! – then I will carry on!
Exercise: 15 minutes elliptical machine, 40 minutes weights focussed on upper body, and 15 minutes on the hand-bike.
Thank you for reading,
Weight Loss Bitch xxx