Spoon feeding…

18 Mar 2014


There may be a tiny rant coming up…but I am going to try and contain myself for now and see what happens or else there will be more naughty marks against my name!

It was weigh-in day again…another 2lbs off – so 19st 5lbs in total now…for my European friends that’s 123kgs…or 271lbs for my American friends. I can’t complain!

20140318-182213.jpgI must admit that I was expecting a smaller loss – not due to any specific reason such coming off plan or anything, but that my losses seemed to be settling into a little pattern of a small loss followed by a bit of a bigger loss…so it was rather nice to see the numbers move…even if a part of me wanted to get into the next stone bracket and wanted a tiny bit more. Next week though – next week…this isn’t a sprint, it’s a lifestyle change! ;-)

I wasn’t really in the best of moods today…which didn’t bode well. I have been trying to up my water intake to four litres each day. This means lots more wee! Which meant that I was up six times last night needing to visit the bathroom. I woke up bleary-eyed and short of patience.

I adore my group, I really do…but for fecks sake, they drive me crazy at times. Pizza Lady struck a few times today…not realising that you could only have one HEB a day (unless you are on Green or Original…or use syns for them!)…not realising that the Quality Street that she has been eating are 2.5 syns each…saying that she likes the Ryvita Thins as you can dip them in ‘stuff’ – again, not synning them or the ‘stuff’. She acknowledges that she has never read her book…but that she likes to keep us amused – I love her to bits. I have told her that I write about her…but considering the one HEB message hasn’t sunk in yet…! I wouldn’t mind, but she hasn’t got loads to lose and has been there longer than I have…she could have been at target for ages now and it makes me sad to think that I suppose. I would have given anything to be able to reach target within a matter of months.

You never know the reason behind someone joining group though…you would assume that it was for weight loss purposes! ;-)

Then my favourite couple were at it. Getting fed up of having to plan for Slimming World. Yet when asked what they would normally eat…chops, fish, potatoes, veggies…the only food that wouldn’t have been very Slimming World friendly would have been the puddings – but this could be synned. The thing is, weight loss is quite hard at times. You have to be prepared to bit of effort in. Life can’t be like it was before…as that ‘before’ got you fat. So what makes you more fed up…being fat…or having to plan a little?

Some of the food that people eat is crazy. Granola that is 12.5 syns a serving…but using it as a HEB – even though a HEB comes in at 6 syns or less and needs a certain amount of fibre to qualify. What books do people have that I don’t…more to the point, why would you join a weight loss group and not read the fecking information they give – what’s the point? If your way of eating kept you slender and healthy, then you wouldn’t need to read these books or attend a Slimming World group…but as it clearly hasn’t kept you slender and healthy…read the fecking books!

What has really annoyed me today is the spoon-feeding that some seem to need / want / like / enjoy. Forever asking, ‘what’s the syns in this?’ or ‘is fruit in cans syn free?’ or ‘how much of this can you have?’. If you are a paying Slimming World member you have the same access as everyone else does to the website…so work it out for yourself. Again, read the fecking books – they are really bloody good and tell you all you need to know. If you really want to lose weight, then work at it.

Spoon-feeding got you fat in the first place…try a bit of pro-activity for a change!

After group I decided to skip my gentle aquafit class and head to the gym for a ‘proper’ workout. I am at uni tomorrow and so won’t get my usual ‘arm-day’ workout in – plus, I felt as if I needed to use up some of my excess emotion and turn it into sweat. It didn’t really work…but at least I can’t add gym-skipping-guilt to the emotions already flowing today. :-)

We then headed to the horses – they are fine. I am in talks with the horse guy to see about getting his magic touch and help with loading her – fingers crossed, this will happen on Friday. Then we hit the shops – well, Mr WLB did as I was making horsey phonecalls.

I am now really annoyed as I have just checked the shopping bags and Mr WLB seems to have forgotten the things I requested…but managed to ensure that all of his food items – and cigarettes – made it home. So I am buggered for my food at uni tomorrow and am in a really foul mood.

My food is so important to me – I take Slimming World and my health more seriously than anything else at the moment…mess with my food and you feel my wrath! I am leaving it there before I really go off on one. I might go and stick my boxing gloves on I think – less syns than raiding a cupboard…although he hasn’t fecking bought anything to fill them – so either way, food isn’t a fecking option! ;-)

Hopefully, normal shiny happy service will be resumed…we all get days like this!

Breakfast: Bananas.

20140318-185140.jpgLunch: Burgers with roasted peppers, tomatoes and pickled onions (2 x HEA and 2 x HEB).

20140318-175921.jpgDinner: Jacket potato, mixed beans, cottage cheese, and salad.

20140318-194755.jpgSnacks: Velvet Crunch (24 syns).

20140318-180016.jpgAn okay food day. Bananas to eat at weigh-in. Then burgers for lunch – my usual Asda meatfree ones weren’t available so I had to go for the Quorn beef style ones. They are syn free but not as tasty at the Asda ones in my opinion…drier. So loaded them with my HEA cheese and gherkins, and put some tomatoes, pickled onions, and roasted red peppers with them. Dinner was quite simple – a jacket potato, cottage cheese, mixed beans, and salad. And my beloved once a week treat of Velvet Crunch. I know that some people have commented on how crazy it is that I don’t just have this kind of stuff daily if I get upto 25 syns…but once a week is enough for me!

Exercise: 15 minutes elliptical machine, 40 minutes weights, and 15 minutes on the hand-bike.

Thank you for reading,

Weight Loss Bitch xxx

  

WeightLossBitch

On a health and fitness driven journey to lose over 32st / 448lbs / 203kgs – yes, it is a considerable amount – I am committed to losing my excess weight without the aid of weight loss surgery, diet pills, or quick fixes…as there aren’t any! Changing my eating habits and building up my fitness levels, along with addressing the ‘head issues’ will be crucial in order for me to achieve my goal. Living in England as a 31 year old super morbidly obese woman can be challenging to say the least. I have been shouted at in the street and verbally abused far too many times to mention; hence the name ‘Weight Loss Bitch’…the day I am just called a ‘bitch’ instead of a ‘fat bitch’ will be the day that I know I have cracked my weight loss! With many reasons to lose this weight I am documenting my journey for a number of reasons. Firstly, I would like to keep a record of the ups and downs, the highs and lows, and the challenges I face with such an enormous task to tackle. Secondly, I would also like to inspire and encourage other people who are in a similar situation and to show them that significant amounts of weight can be lost naturally…with a bit of motivation, hard work, dedication and will power. Thirdly, all of the blogging, Facebook-ing, Tweet-ing, Pinterest-ing and YouTube-ing keeps me occupied and keeps my fingers out of the fridge!

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