To the Bullies,
You probably don’t know who you are and what you did to me, but I remember everything. The names, the taunts, the threats. I remember so much. My last three years of school were miserable due to you all. You bullied me so much that I was unable to stay on at school for sixth form, even though my grades were more than enough to enable me to complete my high school education.
Even though I left school as soon as I could, I couldn’t run away from you all. You sapped my confidence and left me with anxieties that last to this day. I can’t even walk around the village I’ve lived in for almost all my life by myself. I’m still afraid of you, even though you’ve probably completely forgotten all you did to me.
But I’m letting you know that I’m changing. I’m getting my confidence back. It’s taken me nearly ten years to do this, but I am going to change things. I will get my confidence back. I will be able to walk around my little village alone. I will stop worrying about bumping into one of you when I go out by myself. I will do all this and more, just so you know that you didn’t defeat me.
And for what it’s worth, I forgive you for what you did. Feeling bitter about things will only hold me back. So I’ve forgiven you, even though what you did led to me developing schizophrenia. Forgiving you all was the easy bit though. Moving on and changing things is the tricky bit.
You may have bullied me into silence, but I will get the last word. You have not defeated me, and I will not let you get me down anymore. Your taunts and threats will not bother me anymore.
Yours,
That Girl You Couldn’t Leave Alone
Katy Gray
I started suffering with the symptoms of schizophrenia at the age of 18, but it wasn't until I was 21 before I was diagnosed. My diagnosis was recently updated to paranoid schizophrenia, but I refuse to be known by a label. I am a person first and my illness last. I am always trying to break the stigma that surrounds mental health, schizophrenia in particular, and write as much as I can to try and achieve this.
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