I had to chuckle when reading some of the comments left by people about my weight loss results yesterday.
‘Be proud!’, or, ‘You should be so proud of yourself!’, or, ‘I hope that you are proud!’
The reason I chuckled when I read these comments is that I am so bloody proud it’s untrue. I actually commented to a fellow Twitterer today that I am too proud at times…and need a bigger door to accommodate my head and not my bum now!
Whilst I am not big-headed in the slightest, I am so proud of myself for what I have achieved so far – and for what is to come. I guess part of this is due to the two-fingers I can give to those who doubted that I would ever do it. Also, because I remember how it felt to sit at my first weigh-in – this time around! – at Slimming World and contemplate having to shift over 32st to get to my target. Not many people weigh 32st…let alone go on to lose it – and I am very nearly two-thirds of the way through that now.
So yes I am proud. I have a confidence in myself that I never thought I would have. I truly believe that I will reach my target – or get as close as my body will allow me to get to it. It’s a tough target. I am 5’7″ and am aiming for 11st. But we shall see…I haven’t been a ‘healthy’ size for such a long time and have no idea how I will feel at 13st, or how much my loose skin will weigh.
I can safely say that my mind is in the right place – I feel strong and confident and have an unwavering focus on reaching my goal…all whilst being nice to myself and accepting that there will be ups and downs along the way. I just have to trust myself and the process – and Slimming World – and keep going.
Being proud is something good, yet I have never really felt it before. I am proud of other people, but never really with myself as I haven’t had to work so hard for something before…it always felt a bit easy. This however is not fecking easy and so I have a right to be proud!
An email arrived a few moments ago that made me proud too. Proud of my coaching client. Whilst I adore the work I do, what I adore more is seeing people go on and be successful…seeing them change and grow and realise that they have the answers. I just help them through this process…it’s not about me…it’s all about them. I will share the lovely words she wrote. Actually, Mr WLB asked me why I was wiping my eyes…her email made me shed a tear as I know how fecking fantastic coaching is, but to see other people realising that is marvellous. Here we go then…a bit of shameless self-promotion and another demonstration of how proud I am!
‘I cannot thank you enough WLB. As you keep telling me, I do have all of the answers, but I would never have found them without your guidance. You allowed me talk, and you listened and asked questions that I had never even asked myself. You focussed my thinking and helped me to believe that I can make the changes I have longed to make. I now have the tools to continue alone – knowing that you are there if I need you – and I cannot put into words how different my mind feels. Not only has your coaching helped me with my weight and fitness, but I find myself responding differently in work situations, tackling other life issues, and dealing with my children in a better way…you have impacted so many areas of my life. I feel empowered for the first time in my life; sorry I know you don’t like that word empowered!
Working with you has been like a breath of fresh air. You have given me the confidence to tackle my issues, issues that have been there for well over twenty years and that I have tried many, many times to overcome. I no longer think about food and exercise so much, yet am losing weight consistently and enjoying the exercise that I do; it doesn’t feel forced. My relationship with food is much improved and my binging was at a level that I thought would never be controllable.
You have exceeded my expectations in all areas WLB. I was depressed, approaching 40, feeling like a failure, and shying away from life. Now, I feel like a fox and, as you put it, I am grabbing life by the balls and loving it!
Seriously, I cannot thank you enough. I know that you have an issue in charging for the help that you give, but the £75 sessions I have had have changed my life beyond anything I could have imagined. And I worked it out. I have spent £575 with you. I would pay triple this amount; actually the changes you have helped me make are priceless.
I also know that you struggle to accept praise. Please accept this though, and please share it as I want everyone to know how powerful your help is!’
How bloody lovely is that? I am excited for her future as well as mine. And I am also excited as I hope to give those two-fingers to the people who wanted to charge me £600 and £225 an hour for this kind of help! I am also working on plans to make coaching even more affordable and will keep you posted on that. My saggy body and I WILL take over the world one day! You can have the best eating plan, and best PT, in the world…but without your head in gear it rarely works long term!
Right then. That’s it from me today. I feel really grotty. I was supposed to be at uni but woke up yesterday with the sniffles and a sore throat…overnight it turned into a monster and I was sweating all night and couldn’t sleep. The alarm went off and almost went out of the window! I sent excuse messages and stayed in bed for a bit. I had planned on doing some work for my final assignment but just couldn’t…well, I could if I didn’t keep distracting myself! Mr WLB is still having a tough time, so I have been giving him some attention today and helping him through things. Life is bloody tough at times and I think we should give a bit more credit to people…we are all fighting battles whether they are visible ones or not. Enough of my rambling now though…I am going to find something other than the football to watch!
Breakfast: Banana and boiled eggs.
An okay food day. I have been hungry – when I get a cold I am ravenous…but for bread and junk food! So I managed to stay on track and walloped as much garlic and lemon in my dinner as I could! My usual brekkie was followed by the lunchbox rice salad I had prepared for lunch – just loads of veggies and rice and spices. Dinner was homemade humus – chickpeas, lemon, cumin, and lighter than light mayo – with spiced veggies – aubergine, courgette, red onion, and pepper, with garlic, cumin, lemon juice, and mixed spices…oh, and chilli flakes. And my snacks were raspberries and another flapjack.
Exercise: None! I am taking my own advice and being kind to myself…some R&R time.
Thank you for reading,
Weight Loss Bitch xxx