“Live in the moment. Forget the past and don’t concern yourself with the future” Anon.
A short post this evening…
I’ve seen this quote tonight and automatically think of the think of the saying I’ve once said myself that’s to forget about the past, focus on the present and to not think about the future as it’s yet to be written.
As I sit here writing this blog post I think about this evening’s quote and what it should represent. I sit and wonder whether it’s best to live in the moment or whether living in the past ever equates to anything.
As I sit this Saturday evening after finishing a short stint at work I wonder. What is it all about? Why do we concern ourselves with the past? Why can’t we forget the past? Why can’t we leave the past with where it ought to be left alone? I think it’s solely because we tend to associate ourselves with our past and usually with the various Epileptic episodes our Epilepsy has brought.
This evening I wonder what it’s like to live in the moment and whether we can ever leave the past where it ought to be in the past. Many may question why I have raised this question however I think it’s because we tend to consider our current lives to be based upon past events. Whether it be an insecurity, a condition, an insecurity or a worry about a past event we tend to drift there. Into a place we wonder we can ever eradicate. A place where we don’t feel 100%. It’s a worrying prospect.
When I was younger I would think about Epilepsy and wonder whether I’d ever be able to accept it. Whether I would ever be able to embrace the condition I had and be the person I aspired to be. Twenty one years later I’m getting there slowly but surely I know there’s a person inside of you that we all aspire to be that’s a person who’s confident, worry free and less concerned about the little worries beneath us.
The thing is is that Epilepsy can worry us, it can scare us on occasion and make us question who we really are. It can worry us beyond belief to make us not believe in the moment and make us question what is right within our lives such as what is right, who we can trust and who we can be associated with.
Throughout the seizures and the shaky bouts I have questioned who Saz really is. There have been moments however the more I think the more I think about who I represent, what I want and instead of Epilepsy dominating my life what makes Saz happy. The same rules apply to you.
You cannot prevent what’s happening however trying to remain positive during your process can be a comforting thing and a positive thing at that therefore hold onto it and embrace the moments you have.
As for the remainder of the week.. The shakes are testing my patience however endurance is key. I’m remaining strong, keeping a log of my shakes activity and keeping a level head. No seizures have occurred, the shakes are worrying but I’m keeping a record and remaining strong.
Exercise wise all’s good as is the diet.. apart from the curry and chips each Friday and the wine of a weekend. There’s no point in lying to you guys. All in moderation.
To conclude.. Tonight has been a short post however a one that required no in depth analysis. All I can say is live in the moment. Does what makes you happy and be who you wanna be. Stop worrying and concentrate on the person you want to be. There’s only one you therefore live it, be sensible however do what’s right, what keeps you going and what ensures you live in the moment. You have on life therefore live it.