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Last Thursday I walked to the mailroom to pick up my box of IV nutrition.  When I got there, the box was heavier than normal and my heart sank and my mind started spinning…

Heavier box = more TPN = No more Food

As my head completed this mental equation my stomach tied up in knots.  I made the trek back to my room, all the while dreading what I was going to find when I opened the box.

Before opening the box, I shoved a brownie in my mouth. I was not going to go on bowel rest without one last hurrah.  Needless to say, I was right, the box had 7 bags of TPN in it, so either it was a mistake or I was no longer allowed to eat.

I sat there looking at the box.  I hate not being able to eat.  It’s terrible and you don’t realize how much time people spend eating until you aren’t allowed to eat anymore.  I knew I should be upset.  I knew I should be devastated that I was no longer allowed to eat for the time being, but instead I felt nothing.

I called my nutritionist to confirm the change and then called my mom to tell her about the TPN.  Still I felt nothing.  I logically connected the pieces in my head, justifiying the benefits of doing TPN.

Now that I’ve connected the pieces in my head, I just have to readjust to not being able to eat again.  I feel bad enough that most of the time it isn’t too hard, but I’m also on prednisone, which means I start to super crave food.  Its a rough life and isn’t going to be easy, but I really don’t have much choice right now.  So instead I keep on keeping on, just this time without food, in my not so normal life


Sarah Brocker

Hi my name is Sarah Brocker and I have Crohn's Disease. I've got 8 scars and am missing two feet of intestines and my life isn't normal, but whose life is normal? I want to use my experiences to help you, even if it means sharing embarrassing experiences. I am also looking to break the stigmas associated with IBD in order to make living with IBD just a little bit easier. All I want to do is help, so please, let ME help YOU!

One Response to Come Back Food

  1. Annie Varughese

    Yes, it is to agree that following proper diet tip can improve our health condition and to be fit. In our daily life we do utilize more nutrients without knowing which has great impact on the body…………

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