Apologies, I am not normally one for blasphemy – oh, who am I trying to kid? I do it all of the time! – but I had to share the response of one lady in group when she found out my starting weight. I don’t think that she could help herself! We were discussing Body Magic and that if I could start trying at over 43st, then most people – other than those with specific medical issues – could give it a go. Anyway, when my starting weight was mentioned, by me, she just blurted out, “JESUS!”, and then put her hand over her mouth!
I didn’t know whether to take it in good grace…or to ask if there was a problem? I went for the former, as I am sure she was just shocked that somebody of my slender stature (yes, I am being sarcastic…the sunstroke hasn’t done any lasting damage!) could have once weighed that amount. However, I have heard plenty of shocking things in my life yet have never managed to lose control of my mouth like that…maybe that’s why she’s at group – a lack of mouth control gets us there I guess?! 
Part of me feels that I should hide my weight, yet part of me feels that I should just be okay with it – after all, it is me – and I shouldn’t have to feel ashamed really. Writing this blog has given me an outlet for my feelings and emotions, so much so that I felt confident enough to start telling close friends my starting weight. I also shared my weight with the group…and because I didn’t get any shock reactions, it gave me the confidence to start opening up. I know that 43st+ is a hefty bloody weight and that it is shocking, but I must admit that I was pleased that this lady hadn’t been in the group when I first opened up, as her reaction might have made me think twice. As it is, I don’t really care whether she said “Jesus” due to shock or due to disgust or due to whatever the heck she had in her mind…I am over the moon with how things are going and I am sure that there was no intent to throw me off track!
So, I guess I should share today’s news for those who haven’t already heard…
I lost 3lbs, taking my total loss to 14st 7.5lbs. So I got my next award, along with a rather lovely one – 33.3 – which shows me that I have lost a third of my starting weight! This one was unexpected…it was one milestone that I hadn’t considered. I haven’t heard of this award before and have a sneaky feeling that my lovely consultant and her creative hubby made it for me, knowing that I like my milestones! Due to my exercise efforts I was also able to bag my Gold Body Magic award today…so it was a real certificate haul for me – and I was rather proud. I have also pushed under that next stone bracket – so am in the 28s. Whilst I realise that there are many of you who would be mortified to weight that much, I am pretty bloody happy…the 43st bracket seems a dim and distant memory.
Group was great this morning. The Body Magic talk was really good, and just highlighted that incorporating a little exercise here and there can have huge health benefits…and benefits on the scales too. I won’t harp on about it though, as I do enough chatter regarding exercise as it is.
Pizza Lady was fairly sedate today, no pearls of wisdom to share there I am afraid – I am hoping that she is on form next week! I don’t think that this weather has been helping much. It takes a lot to make me lose my appetite, but others seem to have been suffering – not knowing what to eat in this heat, and not fancying yet another salad. One of my tricks is to make my homemade hummus and dip veggie sticks in it, and apple slices taste lovely with it too. Or having some cold chicken drumsticks in the fridge…anything to keep your food intake up, or else your body doesn’t know what the heck is going on.
Fluid intake is another area to consider. I found this, which I thought might be helpful…a bit like a Dulux paint chart, but for our wee!
I think it gives a nice guide as to whether or not we are drinking enough…but then certain foods can change the colour of wee…I will never forget when my other half first had beetroot – he thought he was dying!
Anyway, that was my weigh in day experience this week…onto the usuals…
Last night bought thunder and lightening in serious doses! I felt the paws of my dog on the edge of the bed at 4am…so she joined me as she wasn’t keen on the thunder at all. My sunstroke seems to be leaving me, although I did stay in bed a little longer this morning to catch up on some sleep, and nearly fainted in the shower – so I am just hydrating and keeping an eye on myself! After group we popped to see the horses, who were fine, and then to Asda for today’s supplies. Babysitting duty beckoned all afternoon / evening – which included lots of Peppa Pig, cutting out farm shapes that I had drawn…my horses looked like camels, a challenging dinner time, a dancing competition…I am shattered now and just want to relax and watch ‘Luther’!
Breakfast: Banana.
Lunch: Uncle Bens Mexican rice (3 syns) with stir fry veggies.
Dinner: Fakeaway kebabs with roast butternut squash and sweet potato chips (2 x HEA and 2 x HEB).
Snacks: Special K cracker crisps (20.5 syns for the box…although they were shared with my niece and nephew!).
A good food day. Stupidly though, I am a bit annoyed with myself over the Special K cracker things. I hadn’t planned on eating these at all – the kids wanted them and I tucked in too. Obviously, it came within my Tuesday syn range – as I allow myself upto 30 syns and am allowed more due to my weight – but because I hadn’t planned it, I was a bit miffed with myself. I know that life throws things at us…but I just don’t want to get into the habit of opening my mouth each time it does! The rest of my food was good – my fakeaway kebabs were made with Quorn lamb strips, mushrooms, green pepper, onion and tomatoes. This was stuffed into pitta breads, with cheese and salad…and roasted sweet potato and butternut squash – delicious. Lunch was just a tub of stir fry veggies with the Uncle Bens rice…simple!
Exercise: None – a lovely rest day.
Thank you for reading – and I hope that the scales are kind to you this week!
Weight Loss Bitch xxx
WeightLossBitch
On a health and fitness driven journey to lose over 32st / 448lbs / 203kgs – yes, it is a considerable amount – I am committed to losing my excess weight without the aid of weight loss surgery, diet pills, or quick fixes…as there aren’t any! Changing my eating habits and building up my fitness levels, along with addressing the ‘head issues’ will be crucial in order for me to achieve my goal. Living in England as a 31 year old super morbidly obese woman can be challenging to say the least. I have been shouted at in the street and verbally abused far too many times to mention; hence the name ‘Weight Loss Bitch’…the day I am just called a ‘bitch’ instead of a ‘fat bitch’ will be the day that I know I have cracked my weight loss! With many reasons to lose this weight I am documenting my journey for a number of reasons. Firstly, I would like to keep a record of the ups and downs, the highs and lows, and the challenges I face with such an enormous task to tackle. Secondly, I would also like to inspire and encourage other people who are in a similar situation and to show them that significant amounts of weight can be lost naturally…with a bit of motivation, hard work, dedication and will power. Thirdly, all of the blogging, Facebook-ing, Tweet-ing, Pinterest-ing and YouTube-ing keeps me occupied and keeps my fingers out of the fridge!
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