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Right then…now that I have had a chance to sleep, I think that I can be a little more coherent than I was last night!

Jessie was fabulous! Seriously – he was a lovely gent who instantly put people at ease.

When I picked Jill and Jessie up from the station, he clambered into the back of Freddie Freelander – which I had cleaned as he was really filthy! – and then he sat chatting with my other half whilst Jill and I chatted on the way to the yard. When we arrived at the stables, he said that it reminded him of home…not that he lives in a stable…but that it reminded him of Texas!

We then had a photo session, and the ladies got lots of pictures. I kept winding my sister up – who was there – as she had put more make-up on than usual…but she is the sort that won’t put the rubbish out in the wheelie bin without a full face of make-up! As she went to stand next to Jessie for her picture, the wind blew her cardigan off her shoulders…and we found it hilarious when Jessie said, “Oh, it’s like is it?!”…and Jill said, ‘Oh, my clothes are falling off!”…she couldn’t keep a straight face in her photo!

Then my Mum had a picture and they chatted about her fostering a little…he also signed a picture for my Mums current foster placement who is a little enamoured with him!

There was a lovely atmosphere – the ladies were all fabulous and it felt really comfortable, despite us only having met for the first time yesterday afternoon. We did have some time to bond before Jessie arrived, and I think this helped.

I then showed Jessie the exercise equipment we had…and he spent a little time putting a circuit together for us. We had five stations – some jumping jacks, a dead lift, squats with weights, some side stepping on and off my Step, and then some floor touches. Before we began, Jessie talked about how important exercise was…that we tend to ‘live’ from the head up…focusing on solving problems with our minds. We sit on the sofa worrying about money worries, or what people think of us…when getting our bodies moving – feeling that we can move and use our bodies – it gives us a sense of achievement and helps clear our minds. There is another way to solve our issues than by stuffing our faces!

We did a warm up of marching on the spot, and then a minute at each station. The ladies really went for it…and I gave it a go but really struggled if truth be told. I think that it showed that you can be fit(ish) in a way…so I can do my treadmill okay…but the circuits nearly finished me off! Jessie stopped me, and ended up pouring water on my neck to cool me down. I had grabbed a seat for a breather…but he wouldn’t let me sit down! I felt like unleashing the WLB in me, but remembered that I was dealing with fitness and weight loss royalty…I managed to contain myself! As I was participating in this event, it was a little difficult to get pictures…my other half seemed focused on filming me – which was a little off-putting at times! I will try and get some pics during the Tuesday event.

During my 1:1 session, we discussed that I need to take things steady, but that I can start mixing my workout up. Given that the equipment there was mine anyway, I can recreate the circuit at home! He did say that I had good technique and form during the dead lifts and squats…so the weights will be ideal…especially using my body weight too for resistance.

After the circuits we went for a walk around the field for a ‘cool down’…for me, this was more of a workout…but I did it. And if I am being totally honest, I have never walked around that field…I usually drive the car up there – yes, extremely lazy…I had become accustomed to doing those sorts of things at my biggest and still do them now unfortunately!

Once the cool down had finished, we had a breathing moment. This was really good…even though it felt a little strange sitting there with our eyes closed in front of people we had only just met. He talked us through a relaxation / breathing exercise and it was great – it kind of bought your mind back into focus yet cleared the fuzz at the same time. He talked during the exercise about not letting people have your power…and made a reference to the gym…about not giving a “fuck” about what people think…do not let them have your power. I had mentioned earlier that I wanted to join a gym, and was going to get a t-shirt which says, ‘I have already lost 15st, so stop fucking staring’…so his comments made me chuckle.

I think we do give a lot of power to others…we care about what they think, we worry about being judged, we worry what we look like to others…I doubt those people will figure in our lives in any significant way though. So I am making it my mission to try and crack on and not worry!

We then had our 1:1 sessions…and I think that this was what really made the difference to the ladies. All of them said how much they got out of it…how energised they feel and motivated to reach their goals. It was quite emotional for some and I was so proud of each and every person there!

By this point in time, Jessie was frozen. The balmy English summer evenings seem to have disappeared…so we had low temperatures…and Jessie wrapped up in a rug with a constant supply of coffee. After the 1:1′s had finished, he came and grabbed some food and we had a chat before taking him back to the station. He signed some photos before heading off…including one for my niece – he wrote ‘You Rock!’ and she was thrilled…I have a feeling that I might have a four year old girl sneaking into my event on Tuesday for a quick photo with him!

Once Jessie headed off, after hugs all round, us ladies said our goodbyes and my support crew and I tidied up. I then climbed in the car to head home – feeling shattered – only to discover that I couldn’t find my car keys. After searching for them, in the dark, I checked with my sister to find that she had put them in her bag for safekeeping. So I waited for her to bring them back for me, before heading home.

I slept well – which is not surprising! I think the build up to the event left me a little stressed. I wanted people to enjoy the evening, but I was also putting myself out there after hiding away for so long…so it was a combination of mental and physical tiredness. I woke up aching…which is no surprise really as I have been doing some quite gentle exercise I suppose with my walking – bring on the blood, sweat and tears!

Given that I got up much later than usual, and then got a call to remind me that I was babysitting…at 1pm and not 3pm as I thought, I shot out of the house to check on the horses and to grab some veggies from Asda. I quickly had lunch before heading off to babysit. This is always fun / hectic / noisy / brilliant…we played with Play-Doh!

I love Play-Doh! We also had a dancing competition, and stories, and some blackberries that my other half had picked for them. I managed to catch up on some Sky TV when the kids went to bed…and yes, it was an episode of Jessie’s show that I hadn’t managed to watch!

Breakfast: Banana, grapes and strawberries.

Lunch: Chicken salad with beetroot salad and rolls (2 x HEB).

Dinner: Chicken with broccoli and cauliflower cheese (2 x HEA) and roast butternut squash and carrot mash.

Snacks: Special K crisps (5 syns) and a Nakd bar (6.5 syns).

A gorgeous food day! Brekkie was a superfree feast of fruit…and it was lovely. Lunch was some of the leftovers from last nights feast – a gorgeous chicken salad – yes, I did just use the word ‘gorgeous’ to describe a salad…and to think that I was #1 salad dodger! Dinner was more chicken with some of my butternut squash and carrot mash with roasted red onion and broccoli and cauliflower cheese…yummy. My snacks were also good – the Nakd bar was a cafe mocha one and it was mega!

Exercise: Nothing…shocking really given the motivation boost last night…but I am aching today!

Thank you for reading…and have a wonderful week!

Weight Loss Bitch xxx

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WeightLossBitch

On a health and fitness driven journey to lose over 32st / 448lbs / 203kgs – yes, it is a considerable amount – I am committed to losing my excess weight without the aid of weight loss surgery, diet pills, or quick fixes…as there aren’t any! Changing my eating habits and building up my fitness levels, along with addressing the ‘head issues’ will be crucial in order for me to achieve my goal. Living in England as a 31 year old super morbidly obese woman can be challenging to say the least. I have been shouted at in the street and verbally abused far too many times to mention; hence the name ‘Weight Loss Bitch’…the day I am just called a ‘bitch’ instead of a ‘fat bitch’ will be the day that I know I have cracked my weight loss! With many reasons to lose this weight I am documenting my journey for a number of reasons. Firstly, I would like to keep a record of the ups and downs, the highs and lows, and the challenges I face with such an enormous task to tackle. Secondly, I would also like to inspire and encourage other people who are in a similar situation and to show them that significant amounts of weight can be lost naturally…with a bit of motivation, hard work, dedication and will power. Thirdly, all of the blogging, Facebook-ing, Tweet-ing, Pinterest-ing and YouTube-ing keeps me occupied and keeps my fingers out of the fridge!