I feel so great at the moment…I struggle to put it into words…but you know me, I will always give it a go! 
The scales were okay today – I shifted another 1.5lbs and got Slimmer of the Week too…
So that was a good result. I really had no idea what to expect. I have put my poor couch-potato body through 3 x 30 minute elliptical session, 3 x 40/45 minute weight lifting session, 1 x 30 minute aquafit class and 2 x 60 minute swimming session this week…it is probably wondering who put the rocket up there…I am wondering who is brave enough to pull it out…haha!
Seriously though, I know that my muscles will be retaining water to help repair the work I am putting them through, and I may even potentially be building muscle by now too. So any weight loss is good during this bedding-in phase.
My consultant mentioned that she had an issue with a chap who was a similar weight to me. He started going to the gym and working out as I am doing, but his weight losses really stalled. It turned out that he wasn’t eating enough considering the amount of exercise he was doing. I am not going to worry just yet…as I have lost 7lbs in the last two weeks…but I am going to keep an eye on things. I am also seeing Jessie Pavelka next week, so will get his thoughts on this process of eating back the calories you burn off. The thing is, I know that I am away over New Year and won’t be at the gym…so I don’t want to start eating more and getting used to those levels of food again, as I might not always be able to manage the six sessions each week.
But that is all stuff that I can worry about as and when the weight losses stall or grind to a halt…which is likely to happen at some point along the way.
Back to feeling fantastic!
I was taking to people in group about how fabulous I feel having joined the gym and managing to go swimming again. It really does feel like I have a new life. I could never have imagined doing these things this time last year. In fact this time last year – I have just checked my old book – I weighed 36st 5.5lbs…so there really was no way of me even being able to find a swimming costume to fit. And forget making it up the stairs I have to walk up to get to the gym…it just wouldn’t have been possible. I had my 7st award this time last year…and I now have my 17st award…I feel fecking fabulous! 
Apologies for all of the smiley faces – but they were needed!
I will stop talking about how fabulous I feel, as I know that some of you are probably bored of it by now. I do just want to say that it isn’t as easy and as straightforward as it might seem…I do feel fabulous, but I battle everyday against the old ‘me’. When people ask if I want a takeaway, or a piece of cake, of course I bloody do! I am just trying to stay on the straight and narrow and make the choices that will get me to where I want to be – but it is hard…getting easier, but still a challenge.
Group was fabulous! It was our Miss Slinky and it was won by a lovely woman who has lost over 3st since February. She discussed how seeing herself in the mirror – although she didn’t like what she saw – wasn’t enough to spur her into action, but that sitting on her daughters new bed and hearing a ‘crack’ was. I can empathise with this…I have broken many beds…and not due to bedroom gymnastics either!
What was lovely was to see her confidence boost during the talk she gave. She said that she struggled to see the change in herself – again, something we can all empathise with – but I could just see it dawning on her during the Miss Slinky talk. Definitely a worthy winner – she looks gorgeous and seems like such a lovely person too. I have willed her on before when I knew she was close to her next weight awards…and I hope that she reaches whatever target that she has in mind. More than this, I hope she realises how fabulous she looks and how she inspired so many people today!
Pizza Lady asked some random questions though…like what did she do to fix her daughters bed! And then interrupted the talk to ask how she could make lower syn mince pies. She had eaten two yesterday, not realising that there were about 13 syns per pie, and wanted to see if she could make a better version…which is progress; at least she is thinking about syns now! I do love Pizza Lady.
I discussed my weekend method of resisting the takeaway and cake. I chose to take a nice salad and to say ‘no’ to the cake! I was asked if I wanted a little piece, yet said to my Dad that he wouldn’t take a few drags on a cigarette so why was he offering me cake when I am losing weight. Obviously, everybody has a different journey – I would never criticise someone for having cake when they are losing weight…I just chose the best option for me, as I already had my syns planned and don’t want to stray off my plan. My choice! I want this so much that I am prepared to make those choices…even though a chunk of chocolate cake would have been excellent!
After group I headed home to grab lunch before driving over to the pool. It was our ‘Gentle Aqua’ class today – so just 30 minutes. The octogenarians were far more welcoming than they were last week – I am glad to see that my ‘chat’ with them worked! It was a great little workout – made brighter by watching my other half join in. He’s over 6ft and so crouches down in the shallow end to join in…which results in him looking like a crab doing the movements…it makes me giggle, but I am just so pleased to have his support and proud of him for being there with me. In fact, my consultant made a point of talking about how supportive he is of me in group today – I love him to bits.
Once the exercise had finished, we quickly checked on the horses before grabbing some food from Asda and heading home. I have uni all day tomorrow and so need to prepare for that. I am planning on a gym session after uni but will see how I feel – I am not putting the pressure on with this, as the journey home is always a nightmare, a whole day of learning is intense, and I have been a lazy bugger for so long…so if I do make it to the gym, it will be a big gold star for me…if not, no big deal!
I will be catching up with the antics on Made in Chelsea tonight…does anyone else pretend to have been made in Chelsea with their other half? We do accents and all sorts!
Breakfast: Bananas.
Lunch: Jacket potato, beans, cottage cheese and salad.
Dinner: Burgers with chips and salad (2 x HEA, 2 x HEB and 4 syns).
Snacks: Velvet Crunch (24 syns!).
I do love my Tuesday! It is the one day that I allow myself the extra syns I can have – it’s the one benefit of being a fattie…I get more syns! I am slightly addicted to my Velvet Crunch at the moment and was looking forward to having them. My crisps now feel like a real treat, whereas before they were just such a part of my life that I didn’t really enjoy eating them. Anyway – brekkie was just bananas – one before and one after weigh in. Lunch was a simple and quick affair to have before I headed off to the pool for aquafit. My other half told me that I would get cramp and have to be rescued by a Lifeguard…but I had left it over 45 minutes! Dinner was lush – my lovely burgers! I do love that I can eat this kind of thing and lose weight. Obviously, as my weight comes down, I will continue to reassess what I eat and the portion sizes, but I can’t complain about the losses and, to be honest, I don’t think losing it much quicker would be good for me. The time it is taking to shift the weight is giving me time to change my habits for life – which means it is sustainable.
Exercise: Aquafit for 30 minutes.
Thank you for reading,
Weight Loss Bitch xxx
WeightLossBitch
On a health and fitness driven journey to lose over 32st / 448lbs / 203kgs – yes, it is a considerable amount – I am committed to losing my excess weight without the aid of weight loss surgery, diet pills, or quick fixes…as there aren’t any! Changing my eating habits and building up my fitness levels, along with addressing the ‘head issues’ will be crucial in order for me to achieve my goal. Living in England as a 31 year old super morbidly obese woman can be challenging to say the least. I have been shouted at in the street and verbally abused far too many times to mention; hence the name ‘Weight Loss Bitch’…the day I am just called a ‘bitch’ instead of a ‘fat bitch’ will be the day that I know I have cracked my weight loss! With many reasons to lose this weight I am documenting my journey for a number of reasons. Firstly, I would like to keep a record of the ups and downs, the highs and lows, and the challenges I face with such an enormous task to tackle. Secondly, I would also like to inspire and encourage other people who are in a similar situation and to show them that significant amounts of weight can be lost naturally…with a bit of motivation, hard work, dedication and will power. Thirdly, all of the blogging, Facebook-ing, Tweet-ing, Pinterest-ing and YouTube-ing keeps me occupied and keeps my fingers out of the fridge!
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