A bit rubbish…

11 Apr 2014

Today has been a bit rubbish…all of my own doing really! :-)

Nothing catastrophic has happened or anything…and that is the point – it has been a very unproductive day.

I had a lazy morning…a really lazy morning. Surprisingly for a change, I had nothing planned – no coaching to do, no gym to go to…so I spent a bit of extra time in bed as I was shattered last night.

Whilst I was lazing around I decided that I would make a start on my assignment for uni. First of all I prepared breakfast and then Mr WLB and I went to see the horses. They were lazing in the sun and enjoying life, so I left them to it and we headed to the shops.

Oh, I suppose the next bit was productive. I took out AA cover whilst at Asda! My Dad is a paranoid driver and likes everything perfect…and he has been telling me for ages that I need cover. Given the funny noise from the car, and the fact that I am driving to the Scottish Highlands in a few weeks, I decided to cave in and am now £105 lighter…if only weight loss took the pounds away so quickly! ;-)

Then we came home and I prepared lunch. It was then time to get the books out…so I wandered downstairs piled high with psychology and coaching texts…and put them on the sofa.

Which is kind of where they stayed all afternoon!

I did open a couple of books…but then shut them after nothing caught my eye. I structured my assignment – which just means that I have the front cover and bibliography completed…oh, and a title. So I could claim that I have made a start I guess.

Procrastination has been the name of the game today I think. My thoughts are that it stems from my apathy regarding some of the content of my course. My issue is that coaching is an art. It’s not mathematics – there is no right or wrong answer…subjects like this are irrefutable really. Whereas with coaching, it’s very subjective. One coach will take one view, another coach will take another view…who is right? So when I discuss my theories, there are people who agree and those who disagree…this is fine; it makes it interesting. Yet when an assignment is marked, or your coaching is observed, there are differences of opinion.

For example during our first assignment we were asked to critique. This is fine – I have studied at a higher level than this and so my ability to carry out critical analysis is there. However, not all of my fellow students managed to critique and therefore were graded lower. When the lecturer explained that this was fine and they they didn’t expect us to critique during the first assignment…well, of course I asked if they didn’t expect us to, why did they use it as a grading criteria?

And then there are new theories emerging in the field of coaching regarding goal-setting. Coaching is fairly action-oriented. Goals are set in order to see progress. After all, you wouldn’t want to pay a coach to keep going around in circles. Now the issue here – and actually I agree that goals during coaching can add pressure in a world already full of goals and targets…and also what may seem like a goal to me may not feel like a goal to the client and visa versa – so the issue is that we are having a final observation, which is graded, and we are expected to follow a framework which includes goal-setting. So after discussing that goals aren’t necessary and may add too much pressure, we will be assessed on our ability to get goals agreed. Obviously I asked the question, if goal setting is now considered as non-essential, are you then not expecting us to set goals…this didn’t really go down well! :-)

I am not purposefully obstreperous…but I don’t like contradictions when it comes to something as important as securing a qualification. My opinion is that the quality of the coaching is more important than whether you can pass a course or not…but if the people assessing you don’t share the same approach or views as you do, then you’re buggered quite frankly.

My results are pretty good…the equivalent of a first at the moment…but it’s the principle that annoys me. There is no black and white in general when it comes to something that deals with people and their minds. It’s impossible to get total agreement over an approach, method, theory…which kind of makes the course moot I suppose in that sense. Yet I have met some great people, learnt best-practice, learnt about various models and the research behind those…so it’s well worth it…and I would never choose someone to support me with my issues if they didn’t have a balance of the practical and theory…along with real-life experience in that area.

So I couldn’t find the motivation or impetus to get started today!

The proof is in the pudding though. I am getting great feedback from the people that I work with and they are getting great results. So I suppose I should just get through this course and tow the line…but I am rarely a line-tower…and I will allow you to feel sorry for my lecturer for a few moments!

So this right here – the above rambling – is evidence of me procrastinating! ;-) Instead of writing my assignment – about the language of coaching…a wider topic could not be found and having to condense it into 2500 words is a challenge almost greater than shifting my excess weight – I am just moaning about it all! :-)

I will get around to it eventually. It doesn’t have to be handed in until the end of the month…and I like a bit of pressure!

Given that I have spent my day worrying about doing nothing and feeling unproductive, I had to smile when I read the following:

I’m in a hurry to get things done
Oh, I rush and rush until life’s no fun.
All I really got to do is live and die,
But I’m in a hurry and I don’t know why

And yes, this was found in a coaching text. I have also found a business model that I think would work well for weight loss…so I am going to tinker with it and will share it once I have made sense of it! :-)

So that’s my day really. Quiet, unproductive, but I think it achieved what my trainer wanted it to achieve…no gym, a bit of relaxation, and some time to just mooch. Although when someone almost drove into the side of my car on a roundabout, I wasn’t in a mooching mood…to add insult to injury the two guys were giving me dirty and evil looks when they were clearly in the wrong. Had they stopped I think that I may have gone all ‘Incredible Hulk’ on their asses…but they didn’t stop and so poor Mr WLB and Freddie Freelander had to put up with blue air for a while! ;-) I also ditched the books and went to see my niece and nephew for a while – which is always good fun!

Breakfast: Banana porridge (5 syns).

20140411-172713.jpgLunch: Toasted rolls, Quorn ham, duck eggs, wilted spinach, red onions, and cherry tomatoes (2 x HEB).

20140411-172942.jpgDinner: Linda Mc sausages, cheesy spring onion mash, tenderstem broccoli, and wilted spinach (2 x HEA).

20140411-195932.jpgSnacks: Fruit, Velvet Crunch (4 syns), and a salted caramel HiFi bar (6 syns).

20140411-204057.jpgA nice food day! My usual brekkie. Lunch was good – I fancied some more duck eggs and some bacon…but as I was on a Green day I had Quorn ham instead with wilted spinach, cherry tomatoes, and red onion with toasted wholemeal rolls. Dinner was Mr WLBs choice…although he skipped veggies and had baked beans with his. I had mash – which I put spring onion and LowLow cheese in – with Linda Mc sausages, wilted spinach, and tenderstem broccoli. My snacks were good…some fruit – which tastes so sweet now that I tend to avoid sugar and sweeteners, and the Velvet Crunch, along with another salted caramel HiFi bar.

Exercise: Nothing…my enforced rest day! :-)

Thank you for reading,

Weight Loss Bitch xxx



On a health and fitness driven journey to lose over 32st / 448lbs / 203kgs – yes, it is a considerable amount – I am committed to losing my excess weight without the aid of weight loss surgery, diet pills, or quick fixes…as there aren’t any! Changing my eating habits and building up my fitness levels, along with addressing the ‘head issues’ will be crucial in order for me to achieve my goal. Living in England as a 31 year old super morbidly obese woman can be challenging to say the least. I have been shouted at in the street and verbally abused far too many times to mention; hence the name ‘Weight Loss Bitch’…the day I am just called a ‘bitch’ instead of a ‘fat bitch’ will be the day that I know I have cracked my weight loss! With many reasons to lose this weight I am documenting my journey for a number of reasons. Firstly, I would like to keep a record of the ups and downs, the highs and lows, and the challenges I face with such an enormous task to tackle. Secondly, I would also like to inspire and encourage other people who are in a similar situation and to show them that significant amounts of weight can be lost naturally…with a bit of motivation, hard work, dedication and will power. Thirdly, all of the blogging, Facebook-ing, Tweet-ing, Pinterest-ing and YouTube-ing keeps me occupied and keeps my fingers out of the fridge!

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