Not much to say…

10 Apr 2014

Surprisingly, I don’t really have much to say today for a change! :-)

The past few weeks have involved a lot of thinking – about food, about movement, about the mind. This past week has involved a lot of talking too…five Slimming World talks! I kind of just want to relax my mind for a few days – or at least tonight…so it’s going to be a quickie today I think.

I am taking time out to meditate. Never before in my life did I think that I would be saying that I love organic rice cakes and meditate…but I do love organic rice cakes…and I do meditate – there’s hope for you yet! ;-)

Mindfulness is something that I mention on a regular basis. For me, practicing mindfulness – mainly via meditation and body scans – helps me recognise and accept my emotions, and relaxes me enough to deal with them. So it’s been helpful to focus me during threats of binge eating…helping to identify the emotions that I am feeling, and giving me an outlet for such emotions. A outlet that isn’t based on judgement!

Now, I am no expert in this field. And I am tired. I am freezing cold and have not long arrived back from two Slimming World talks…which can get a bit emotional…did get a bit emotional, and my personal trainer worked me hard today too! So rather than try and explain about the mindfulness meditation, I am going to point you in the direction of an expert…Andy Puddicombe.

You may have watched his TED talk that I linked to recently – or may have seen him around…as he’s quite well known in this field – a bit of an expert!

Andy also runs a company called ‘Headspace‘ and they specialise in helping people practice the art of mindfulness. There are loads of answers here…and also a ten day meditation offering (free of charge) with a ten minute guided meditation. It is good…a great starting point to give you an insight into why and how mindfulness might be helpful.

So have a look at it – and let me know what you think. I listen to Andy’s dulcet tones each evening now…I am not saying that he bores me – far from it – but I am relaxed and able to sleep well after it! ;-) I would also credit some of my 19st 11.5lbs weight loss – the .5 is important! – to practicing mindfulness…so it’s well worth looking into!

In other news, I guess the biggest story of the day is that I got bitten by a spider! A real life spider bit me! I had just climbed out of the shower and was getting dried and could feel a sharp irritating pain – not Mr WLB! – on my wrist. When I went to scratch it, a little spider tried to run off…I squashed it! As a confirmed arachnophobe I am not looking forward to the next few nights…I will be searching the room before I go to bed, worried that a biter might get me…I don’t think Andy Puddicombe can help me relax with this one!

My Slimming World talks tonight were great. I met a lovely blog reader whom I have chatted with virtually…it was so lovely of her to come and see me! The problem is that she has read about me and I think – given my snotty cold – would have been more able to do my talk than I was tonight! ;-) It is so lovely getting to meet other losers – we share so much of the mind stuff in common, and the feedback is great…so many people – despite the differences in weight we might have – have experienced so many of the same emotions and issues. Unless you have been there – wrestling with your mind whilst wrestling with the lid of the biscuit tin – you just don’t get it…and I would not expect you too…just as I struggle to understand the decisions other people make in their lives. So I love getting out there and showing that positive changes can be made. It is never a case of, ‘If I can do it, anyone can!’ as we all have different drivers and different lives and different hurdles to overcome…but there is a way out there for you to make a change!

And that’s about it. A high intensity interval session with weighted boxing, Reebok step, kettlebells, overhead presses and reverse curls, medicine ball wall throws and overhead throws means that I now want my bed. It was fun, but achey, and tough going with a cold. In fact, my trainer wants me to take tomorrow as an additional rest day – whilst it sounds appealing I am just worried…but dealing with this cold is important as it means that I can’t give it my all…so I will listen – for a change – and do as I am told! :-)

Breakfast: Banana porridge (5 syns).

20140410-114408.jpgLunch: Burgers and fruit (2 x HEA, 2 x HEB, and 2 syns).

20140410-221521.jpgDinner: Curried rice with roasted veggies and Quorn deli chicken.

20140410-221558.jpgSnacks: Velvet Crunch (4 syns) and a salted caramel HiFi bar (6 syns).

20140410-221631.jpgA nice food day. Pretty similar to Tuesday…banana porridge for brekkie and to fuel my workout. Lunch was my Asda meatfree burgers – which I stupidly forgot were synned and so have gone 2 syns over my 15…but still well under the 25 that I am allowed but rarely use! Dinner was just a quick lunchbox meal of rice, veggies, and Quorn deli chicken to eat between Slimming World talks, and my snacks…well…my snacks were made epic by the late addition of a salted caramel HiFi bar. If there are any ice cream lovers out there, this tastes like the Haagen Dazs pralines and cream – well it does to me, but I haven’t eaten the stuff in years now! :-)

Exercise: Warm-up followed by 60 minutes PT session.

Thank you for reading,

Weight Loss Bitch xxx



On a health and fitness driven journey to lose over 32st / 448lbs / 203kgs – yes, it is a considerable amount – I am committed to losing my excess weight without the aid of weight loss surgery, diet pills, or quick fixes…as there aren’t any! Changing my eating habits and building up my fitness levels, along with addressing the ‘head issues’ will be crucial in order for me to achieve my goal. Living in England as a 31 year old super morbidly obese woman can be challenging to say the least. I have been shouted at in the street and verbally abused far too many times to mention; hence the name ‘Weight Loss Bitch’…the day I am just called a ‘bitch’ instead of a ‘fat bitch’ will be the day that I know I have cracked my weight loss! With many reasons to lose this weight I am documenting my journey for a number of reasons. Firstly, I would like to keep a record of the ups and downs, the highs and lows, and the challenges I face with such an enormous task to tackle. Secondly, I would also like to inspire and encourage other people who are in a similar situation and to show them that significant amounts of weight can be lost naturally…with a bit of motivation, hard work, dedication and will power. Thirdly, all of the blogging, Facebook-ing, Tweet-ing, Pinterest-ing and YouTube-ing keeps me occupied and keeps my fingers out of the fridge!

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