I just wanted to clear a couple of things up today!
I get shit wrong too. I realised that last nights blog sounded a bit critical and it wasn’t meant that way at all…I sometimes write about stuff that I see and hear in terms of how it affects me, not to try and show people up who might have made a slight error in judgement. Actually, I do sometimes like to show people up…but these are the blog posts in which I really go for it – when I cut and paste the profile of the person being the dickhead and share for all to see.
Yesterday was more of a reflective piece, but I just don’t think it was written very well!
What I was getting at I suppose related to the piece I wrote on Tuesday about sitting in the waiting room at the hospital with fellow fatties. The tweet mentioned last night touched a nerve in a way as I wonder what people think of me at times. Certainly when I was at my biggest, I hated being seen in public…probably because I knew what people were thinking about me…as I would be thinking the same too. I didn’t want to be piss-taken or pitied!
Most of the time now, I really couldn’t care less. But there are occasions when I am still sensitive to things. So that was what the blog post was about…not someone having a mini-rant whilst on a crowded and hot train. It was not intended to generate a discussion about the individual who wrote the Tweet…as she is actually quite lovely! As I said, if I had wanted to highlight the individual, I would have ‘outed’ her!
In fact I remember having a full-on rant on a crowded and hot train once. It wasn’t in the public domain as I don’t think Twitter had been invented then. I was sat opposite a chap on a commuter-packed train, after a long and stressful day at work, who decided that it would be the best and most appropriate time for him to select a new ring-tone for his phone. So he started listening to them one by one. And he couldn’t decide, so he listened to them again. At the point he started the third round, I recommend that he choose one pretty quickly or else he would have to put his fingers down his throat to select a new ring-tone as I was going to ram the phone so far up his back passage that it would almost be irretrievable. The bonus of this rant was that a couple of seats near me cleared pretty quickly…so I could sweat to my hearts content!
So I get stuff wrong too. I am not a Slimming World guru, or a doctor, dietitian, nutritionist, psychologist, therapist, or a perfectionist…I am just a fat girl – okay, woman! – trying to make sense of the crazy world that is weight loss, and doing so in the public domain, albeit anonymously.
I upset people, I piss people off, I make some people smile, I make some people laugh, and I am sure that some cringe at times too. And this is okay – I write what I feel is appropriate at the time, dealing with my emotions along the way. I would far rather write them away than eat them away…so I apologise to anyone that I offend…but if you don’t like it, then you don’t have to read my musings!
Now that I have cleared up the fact that I am far from perfect, let’s get to the usuals…
Today has been good. It didn’t start that well as I woke up in a real mood for some reason. I didn’t want to get out of bed, or go to the gym…or do anything much at all. But I did – I got up and I went to the gym. It was a fantastic session despite my dodgy foot. I walked really slowly on the treadmill, but at a pretty high incline – so my bum and leg muscles were feeling it, but it was fairly low-impact. I then hit the elliptical machine and went slowly again with the intensity high. Then it was time for the rowing machine. Given that I had hit the 30 minute mark on holiday only once, I wondered how well I would do. Despite not setting myself a goal, the 30 minute goal was in my head. And that is what I did…30 minutes, 5543 metres, and lots of sweat! My trainer was impressed I think…and I loved going a bit quicker than a chap who I used to watch in envy! After the gym, I headed to see the horses and popped to the shops. I then caught up with my Mum and sister and nephew for a while, before heading home to eat! I prepped my evening meal too as I was heading out for more Slimming World talks tonight. These were fabulous – I met some more amazing people and had a good giggle! I then caught up with an old friend who has been fighting a battle for the past couple of years…it was good to connect with him again. And now I am off to bed as Mr WLB is getting grouchy with me!
Breakfast: Banana and boiled eggs.
Another lovely Green day! Brekkie was my usual, followed by yesterday’s leftover soup with Ryvita. Dinner was lovely. I mixed some red pesto (2.5 syns per tbsp) through some wholemeal pasta, and fried off some onion, pepper, mushrooms, celery, and spinach, and then added my HEA cheese options. My snacks were enjoyed when I got home!
Exercise: 15 minutes treadmill, 15 minutes elliptical machine, 30 minutes rowing machine, 5 minutes treadmill.
Thank you for reading,
Weight Loss Bitch xxx