Goodness me – I had the strangest dream last night!

I was walking across the field to see my horses. It was really muddy and the ground was kind of moving up and down…like a wave. Then, the corner of a wave came up a little bit like a piece of fresh turf…but the turf was a chocolate brownie. And yes, I started to eat the brownie! I sat there for ages eating turf-brownie, really bloody enjoying it.

I wasn’t sure whether to mention this dream or not, for fear of those who know me having me committed. However it was so weird that I couldn’t resist sharing! :-)

The strangest thing was that I was convinced that I could taste the chocolate, and the texture of the brownie was so stodgy that I woke up wondering if I had been eating chocolate fecking brownies. The worst thing is that this dream is not a one-off. Well, this particular dream is, but I have a lot of dreams relating to the eating of junk food.

My readings and courses led me to Freud at one point, and his often contested views surrounding dream theories. Freud believed that dreams are a form of ‘wish fulfillment’. Our unconscious mind and it’s attempt to resolve a conflict, either past or present. He acknowledged that our unconscious can be quite disturbing (like those weird dreams you have about making out with a relative…you will have had one of those…we all have!) – whereas our preconscious censors this before it reaches our brain as we know it – the conscious. Whereas when you dream, your censor kind of goes to sleep…so it’s like open-house to all of the weirdness and wonderfulness that lurks around in the ether! :-)

So Freud liked to dig around and link images in our dreams to other issues in our life. There is an explanation for every dream according to him. Personally, I have a theory that surrounds my awake body not wanting to eat chocolate brownies anymore…but my mind gets it’s fill whilst I sleep! :-)

Anyway – today has been a dream in itself. I met an amazing lady that I have been chatting with recently and exchanging excited emails for all sorts of wonderful stuff in the future. The first of which is an event being held in Coventry…and I am a guest speaker – eek! So excited as it will be my first non-Slimming World event. So please ‘save the date’ – Saturday 26th July – and I will give more details as and when I get them. Your support would be amazing!

We spent the afternoon together chatting about all sorts of health-related things. We share a frustration of the current offerings out there to support us in our health-related goals…not all weight stuff either…like the frustration with Mr WLB. He looks healthy but isn’t…he’s really suffering but there is a lack of help there. So we put the world to rights and I am quite excited about what the future holds. Which means you will have to put up with my excited rants about it all! ;-)

One thing is for sure – both of us are determined to help people…and we are a passionate pair when it comes to coaching and mind-set and life-changing stuff…I am getting overly exited now, so I am off to relax and calm down!

I did send my final assignment to the friend I mentioned…and it’s come back with a couple of suggestions. Some of which I knew but had conveniently ignored as I needed to stay within my word-count. But I am going to take a final look at it before submitting it and putting away the books for a while!

Breakfast: Boiled eggs and a banana.

20140611-192934.jpgLunch: Rice salad with Linda Mc sausages.

20140611-193020.jpgDinner: Walnut, feta, and beetroot salad (2 x HEA and 2 x HEB).

20140611-193206.jpgSnacks: Raspberries and a flapjack (11 syns).

20140611-193253.jpgA delicious food day! My usual brekkie was followed by a rice salad. I used a sachet of the Batchelor’s Mexican rice…my current version of lazy-arsed fast-food! I mixed it with a couple of chopped Linda Mc sausages, spinach, yellow pepper, and cherry tomatoes. Dinner was delicious…and I never thought that I would say that about a salad! ;-) Fresh spinach, with plum tomatoes, steamed beetroot, walnuts, feta, sweet peppers, and pomegranate seeds. And my snacks were simple too – a punnet of raspberries, and a Trek protein flapjack.

Exercise: Nothing today!

Thank you for reading,

Weight Loss Bitch xxx



On a health and fitness driven journey to lose over 32st / 448lbs / 203kgs – yes, it is a considerable amount – I am committed to losing my excess weight without the aid of weight loss surgery, diet pills, or quick fixes…as there aren’t any! Changing my eating habits and building up my fitness levels, along with addressing the ‘head issues’ will be crucial in order for me to achieve my goal. Living in England as a 31 year old super morbidly obese woman can be challenging to say the least. I have been shouted at in the street and verbally abused far too many times to mention; hence the name ‘Weight Loss Bitch’…the day I am just called a ‘bitch’ instead of a ‘fat bitch’ will be the day that I know I have cracked my weight loss! With many reasons to lose this weight I am documenting my journey for a number of reasons. Firstly, I would like to keep a record of the ups and downs, the highs and lows, and the challenges I face with such an enormous task to tackle. Secondly, I would also like to inspire and encourage other people who are in a similar situation and to show them that significant amounts of weight can be lost naturally…with a bit of motivation, hard work, dedication and will power. Thirdly, all of the blogging, Facebook-ing, Tweet-ing, Pinterest-ing and YouTube-ing keeps me occupied and keeps my fingers out of the fridge!

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