…I should not be allowed on social media, or in fact allowed any form of communication with people! 
So please take this as a warning – if you are of a sensitive disposition then you should check back tomorrow.
I am in a foul mood and every little thing has irritated the shit out of me today. You know those days…when people ask you the kind of things that never usually bother you, but do – my shit tolerance level is at ‘zero’ today.
Like people asking me for syn values. I am not a fecking Slimming World app – if you want to know the syn value then look it up on Slimming World online – you have the same access to websites as I do…or ask your consultant who gets paid to help you.
Then there are people who don’t like certain foods in recipes. If you don’t like it…don’t fecking eat it. I don’t see a recipe online and feel compelled to message the person who posted it advising them of my likes and dislikes. I just omit the foods I don’t like and replace them with the shite I do like.
And then I see people once again criticising weight loss plans that they have either never tried, don’t understand, or are trying to dismiss in order to draw people into their ways of thinking! Seriously – just piss off with your criticism when people (me!) have saved their life with the plan you so easily deride. Diets do work…if you continue to follow them. So if you are going to choose a shake-based diet, then you will need to continue to follow it. If you are going to choose a ready-meal plan to shift the excess lbs as well as £££s then be prepared to do so for the rest of your life. This is why I have chosen Slimming World…as I know that the principles will work with me and for me for the rest of my life – other than when I travel across America of course, in which case I will get right back on track when I come home!
Oooh – I then exchanged emails with a chap who very almost felt my wrath but I kept it in check as I am helping to plan an event and would like to use his venue. He is a dick though…and I shall be meeting him on Wednesday – which should be interesting! I actually ended up calling him as his emails were pissing me off so much and I kept typing responses and then deleting them…it was far more efficient to sound him out over the phone and give him a taste of something not recorded forever in the written word!
Zero tolerance today – which is often the case…but not quite to these sub-zero levels being experienced today!
I don’t like bullshit excuses and a lack of responsibility.
If you are serious about your health and weight loss goals then get serious. Start manning up and take responsibility. Aim for progress…not perfection – but at least give it a decent attempt. We all know that life gets in the way at times, but if you continually use the same reasons for not making progress…then you are never going to do it as those convenient reasons will always be there.
If that reason is always going to be there, then find a way around it – or over it – or fecking under it. One thing is for certain, without removing that block somehow, it will get bigger and harder to shift…just like your arse will!
Seriously though, it’s on days like these – and with questions like the ones above – that I question everything. The positive of the day is that it has not once crossed my mind to throw in the towel and ‘cheat’…which would have been my first port of call many months ago.
And finally, there are those instances of people recommending that I become a Slimming World consultant. I would be the WORST Slimming World consultant as I have no patience. If my members didn’t read their books properly and asked me a question that was clearly answered in it, I would be referring them to the relevant page number. If I got asked – as my consultant did recently – the syn value of salt…well, I would probably ask the member concerned to attend a different group for fear of violence erupting. Thinking about it, I would either be the best or worst consultant…but I would bloody well want results!
In terms of the rest of the day, it has been pretty awful. Mr WLB still isn’t well and it’s bringing back severe anxiety and panic symptoms that we dealt with years ago…he actually wrote a book about it all. He has managed to get a few days off work, but I am concerned about what happens when he goes back. I am stressing out over it…as is he. If we could only get these acid-reflux type symptoms sorted, I think he would feel fabulous. He is on the second level of medication – one up from omeprazole – is taking Gaviscon, Remegel, eating very bland food such as plain chicken, avocado, brown rice – no ‘acidic’ foods, no spices – he is sleeping in an elevated position, on his left-hand side, drinking chamomile tea, has stopped smoking…doing everything advised. Goodness knows how long the referral will take to come through…but something has to give and I don’t want it to be our combined mental health. 
I am going to call it a day now…as I am such a miserable bitch and have probably lost you already!
Breakfast: Banana porridge with almond milk (2 x HEB and 3 syns).
Lunch: Smoked salmon scrambled eggs with wilted spinach and cherry tomatoes.
Dinner: BBQ melt pork with roasted butternut squash, red onion, and green beans (2 x HEA).
Snacks: Raspberries and a flapjack (11.5 syns).
A gorgeous food day. I kicked off with a nice bowl of porridge made with almond milk and topped with chopped banana. Lunch was good too – my favourite smoked salmon scrambled eggs, made with cheap salmon trimmings…but giving me a nice portion of oily fish. I love my wilted spinach and cherry tomatoes with it. Dinner was lush! It was a single portion version of the pulled pork recipe that I put on my FB page – I made up a smaller portion of the sauce and marinated a couple of pork medallions in it all day, and then cooked it slowly in the oven before topping with cheese and finishing under the grill. I put it with roasted red onions and roasted butternut squash wedges which I had pre-cooked in the microwave, and added some lovely green beans.
Exercise: Nothing!
Thank you for reading,
Weight Loss Bitch xxx
WeightLossBitch
On a health and fitness driven journey to lose over 32st / 448lbs / 203kgs – yes, it is a considerable amount – I am committed to losing my excess weight without the aid of weight loss surgery, diet pills, or quick fixes…as there aren’t any! Changing my eating habits and building up my fitness levels, along with addressing the ‘head issues’ will be crucial in order for me to achieve my goal. Living in England as a 31 year old super morbidly obese woman can be challenging to say the least. I have been shouted at in the street and verbally abused far too many times to mention; hence the name ‘Weight Loss Bitch’…the day I am just called a ‘bitch’ instead of a ‘fat bitch’ will be the day that I know I have cracked my weight loss! With many reasons to lose this weight I am documenting my journey for a number of reasons. Firstly, I would like to keep a record of the ups and downs, the highs and lows, and the challenges I face with such an enormous task to tackle. Secondly, I would also like to inspire and encourage other people who are in a similar situation and to show them that significant amounts of weight can be lost naturally…with a bit of motivation, hard work, dedication and will power. Thirdly, all of the blogging, Facebook-ing, Tweet-ing, Pinterest-ing and YouTube-ing keeps me occupied and keeps my fingers out of the fridge!
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