Don’t blame me for tonight’s unsavoury blog post title…blame the lovely FB Natalie! 
Haha – it did make me chuckle when I saw it! 
There were also a few additional words thrown in by other lovely FB people in response to my news…along with a few expletives on my part…
0lbs lost this week! 
Shit happens though.
Each week I have to text Mr WLB so that he knows what kind of mood I will be in when I next see him. His response this week was, ‘Ducking hell. That’s a shame Pee. Bless ya! Talk about it later but I’m still very proud. Snuffeous rock has stayed the same so at least not down the hill.’
I shall translate…’Fucking hell’ he meant! ‘Pee’ is his nickname for me. And the talk about Snuffeous actually relates to someone whom he also calls Sniffeous at times…Sisyphus – a dude who figures in Greek mythology and was made to roll a huge boulder up a steep hill as his punishment for misdemeanours, but before reaching the top the boulder would roll back down, forcing him to begin again. If you fancy reading more about him then have a look at the old blog post I wrote…I won’t bore you now with his story!
Sometimes this losing weight and getting healthy malarkey is such hard work. For one moment today I started to feel sorry for myself and began to wish that I had never let myself get so fat in the first place…but what help is wishing for stuff that clearly cannot be changed? Wishes need to get turned into action. In fairness to me, I did think that particular thought when I was 40 minutes into my 60 minute elliptical workout…so the action bit was definitely in progress if the amount of sweat I was creating was an indicator
I lie actually…it wasn’t just one moment today that I felt sorry for myself. It was when I saw the numbers on the scale, and when I sat in group listening to how well everybody else had done, and then again when I left group as I felt sorry for the old me as I knew there was no way on earth that I was granting it’s wish of heading straight to McDonalds and drowning my sorrows in a BigMac meal or two!
But all of these ‘poor me’ feelings just drain your energy. You wake up with a full battery – hopefully! – 100% topped up. What good is wasting 25% of that energy you have in a day on things that are beyond your control…or things that aren’t taking you towards where you want to go?
I choose to use my energy in a positive way…most of the time!
So I got off the scales, had my mini-moment of frustration, and then took a deep breath and put my big girl pants on. I chatted with everyone whilst signing them in and cheered myself up. I was absolutely thrilled for a wonderful girl in our group who got to her target today – she is so lovely and has worked really hard…her and her mum are lovely and I couldn’t have been happier for her. Plus, she had amazing hair which I love and she looked stunning today! And another lady I know quite well had a great loss this week which I was really pleased about…I was pleased about all of the losses…but if I am being honest, I was a little bit jealous that I wasn’t in their group too today!
My consultant and I managed a quick chat about my food. She knows I stay on track. She also knows that my trainer keeps saying my breakfasts aren’t big enough…and has ganged up on me with him! So I am going to try and have a bit more of a substantial breakfast before working out. The problem I have is that my breakfast is so convenient. I batch cook my eggs and have them cold, and they do keep me fuelled for my workout…I don’t feel dizzy or faint, which I did when I was having porridge. My current breakfast routine is so quick and simple for me but I am going to see if I can make a change and see what happens. I have tried varying breakfasts in the past, with no resulting weight loss joy, but just because it didn’t work back then doesn’t mean it won’t work now.
And actually, for all of you wishing I varied my meals more…there is a fair bit of scientific evidence in studies out there which show that people who eat similar foods on a regular basis actually consume less calories and weigh less. If you are getting your nutrients and have a calorie balance, then variety doesn’t matter. All it helps with is a lack of boredom…and it’s the boredom that harms your weight loss, not eating the same types of food!
Anyway…I will move on.
I am not going to change too much. I have a chat planned with my dietitian at the beginning of August and will get her input too. My Slimming World consultant and my trainer are fab…but the dietitian always adds another balanced viewpoint and, so far, she has been thrilled with my progress and the changes I have made, and has warned me about plateaus which could last a couple of months! I am hoping that this isn’t the case…but it is what it is.
My hope is that if I keep doing what I am doing, and put good stuff out there, then good stuff will come my way – which includes good weight losses!
I am going to head off and relax now. Before anyone points it out, I am well aware that tonight’s dinner has no superfree! Earlier in the week I really fancied a jacket potato with beans and cottage cheese for lunch and my version of faggots chips and mushy peas – which I make with Quorn meatballs – for my dinner. However, I decided to go for a healthier option – even though all of that is ‘free’ – and had a soy bean, spinach and feta salad for lunch, and a Quorn roast dinner with loads of veggies. So today I decided to deal with my faggots chips and mushy pea craving…and I ate it all but felt as sick as a dog afterwards. It was too rich, too much, and didn’t sit well. I guess it highlighted to me how much my tastes have changed. And whilst it was all ‘free’ – apart from the gravy – it just doesn’t suit my tastes anymore. I also had the discussion with Mr WLB as to whether or not me eating this meal tonight meant that I was turning to food for comfort. He thought not, I thought so. To be fair to me, the last time I ate a takeaway was 16th January 2013…so this fakeaway version was pretty saintly in comparison to days gone by! I think I just need to get used to the fact that my tastes have changed and, even though something might be ‘on plan’, it doesn’t mean that my body will appreciate me eating it.
On that note, I will love you and leave you – stay positive and don’t waste that energy on shit you can’t control!
Breakfast: Banana and boiled eggs.
Lunch: Meatfree burgers topped with cheese and gherkins with salad (2 x HEA and 2 x HEB).
Dinner: Chips, meatfree meatballs, and mushy peas!
Snacks: Flapjacks (23 syns).
An okay food day. Brekkie was the usual…soon to be added to. Lunch was my burgers…but I had forgotten wholemeal rolls and had to use toast…which is under the burgers. Dinner, well I think I have covered that. And my snacks were my flapjacks…the last two!
Exercise: 60 minutes on the elliptical machine.
Thank you for reading,
Weight Loss Bitch xxx
WeightLossBitch
On a health and fitness driven journey to lose over 32st / 448lbs / 203kgs – yes, it is a considerable amount – I am committed to losing my excess weight without the aid of weight loss surgery, diet pills, or quick fixes…as there aren’t any! Changing my eating habits and building up my fitness levels, along with addressing the ‘head issues’ will be crucial in order for me to achieve my goal. Living in England as a 31 year old super morbidly obese woman can be challenging to say the least. I have been shouted at in the street and verbally abused far too many times to mention; hence the name ‘Weight Loss Bitch’…the day I am just called a ‘bitch’ instead of a ‘fat bitch’ will be the day that I know I have cracked my weight loss! With many reasons to lose this weight I am documenting my journey for a number of reasons. Firstly, I would like to keep a record of the ups and downs, the highs and lows, and the challenges I face with such an enormous task to tackle. Secondly, I would also like to inspire and encourage other people who are in a similar situation and to show them that significant amounts of weight can be lost naturally…with a bit of motivation, hard work, dedication and will power. Thirdly, all of the blogging, Facebook-ing, Tweet-ing, Pinterest-ing and YouTube-ing keeps me occupied and keeps my fingers out of the fridge!
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