Abused for years
Posted: Thu Apr 25, 2019 10:19 am
I have been dumped after a 30 year marriage and realised that I had been living a nitemare for the last 10 years of it. He was an passive aggressive abuser. I am almost sure he is a narcissist with a full blown disorder.
He has been fighting me in court for financial settlement for 5 years since he left. He claims he has mo money, but of course he does. He doesn’t care if he wins or looses because he continues the abuse which I know is common amongst abusers. The courts treat him as my equal, but he is not my equal. He’s a liar, a cheat and an abuser. I look back at my life and see a wasted life with someone who cared nothing about me. It’s difficult to find purpose when you know you were used. I can’t even attempt to make baby steps forward for any sort of life because I’m constantly having to go to court. All the finances were stupidly in his name and in his control. He comes and goes as he pleases, hides money in the full eye of the law and I’m having to get evidence in a forum that allows so little scope to get this evidence. Abuse may not be spoken about in court because then I look the wife who wants to get back at him. I’ve been abused since 2006. I don’t know if I’m sane anymore. I don’t think so.
I’m fed up and feeling truly useless, valueless. I was put on this world to be his punching bag. I have no purpose other than this. This is my reality.
I am older so a new career is not on the cards. He took the best years of my life.