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An early start with the flu jab and pneumonia jab running around my system was not the best way to start the day! :-)

Having felt on top of the world recently, today has seen strange hot flushes and headaches…but in the words of Gloria…I will survive! ;-)

My early start was due to a day spent catching up with the lovely ladies from the event that I attended a couple of months ago with Jessie Pavelka. They are a fabulous bunch – some very inspirational characters who are all working hard to make positive changes. We were getting together to talk about the progress we had made. And progress varied!

I won’t harp on too much about it, as a jab-addled brain is not conducive to a sensible train of thought!

Needless to say I think that today reinforced once again for me that this battle we have with our weight is purely down to our minds. Yes, food and exercise plays a part – but most of us already know a bit, or a lot, about those areas and could get them sorted, with a little help if needed. The problem with the mind is that only you can do it and only you know what is running through that complicated mind of yours. At times, mine feels like a fecking hamster is running along at a cracking pace on a wheel in there! :-)

Getting the food and exercise right will only lead to temporary fixes with temporary weight losses. The focus must be on the mind…and once the mind is getting there, I think that your food and exercise comes along for the ride. My views about food and how I used it have changed immensely. I even took my own lunch with me to a restaurant today! I am enjoying the exercise and it no longer feels like something that I must do…I WANT to do it, and I WANT to make better food choices.

The ladies had tackled some demons and had made progress. Everyone had made progress but our journeys and the things we had done were very different. It was great to hear everyone speaking about how they feel – some were peed off with the progress that others were making, because they weren’t doing the same…and others were feeling that their progress might be making others feel peed off! The moral of that story, we concluded, was that you just have to say how you feel! As I mentioned in a previous blog…unless you put it out there, nobody is going to know that you aren’t feeling as they might assume you are.

So that was the morning really. We sat in a circle and talked. I am sure there was a BT advert with Bob Hoskins…it’s good to talk!

We then all went out for lunch, with the plan of a leg-stretch alongside the Thames afterwards. Lunch went on for longer than expected…so no Body Magic for me today. Actually, I tell a lie. I did a few steps of jogging across the grounds of Howbury Park…yep…I jogged! Only for a few steps as I realised that it was futile…the rain was still hitting me whether I jogged or not! ;-)

The afternoon was spent with Jessie gathering thoughts from us for his new website. We all had some good ideas, so it will be great to see how he turns those into a workable website.

Then we had a little refresher regarding ‘toolkit’ stuff to help with the mind progress. Jessie had actually told me to go home at this point! He could see that I was ill and – without wishing to sound like a plonker – he and I had a Skype chat the other week during which he told me that I was ‘there’…not in terms of my weight, but in terms of my mind. So whilst the ‘toolkit’ is of interest to me from a curiosity and professional perspective – as I used this stuff in my previous work life and like to see how others interpret and deliver such tools and methods – I couldn’t honestly say that there were any lightbulb moments for me. And as one of the tools is about being honest, open and genuine…I am going with that and telling it how I felt it! ;-)

My journey is well under way. I am over halfway there in terms of weight…but I am lot further along than halfway with my mind. So my needs in terms of support probably do focus more on the exercise side of things. I am in need of a personal trainer to kick my bum around a gym or a field. It is funny though…the previous attempts I had at weight loss saw me engaging with a personal trainer before focusing on my mind…and I lost 8st…but put that back on again along with an additional 10st of excess baggage! As I have said before, us losers are great at planning what diet and exercise plan we are going to follow, but rarely give thought to the real key that will get us there…yep, the mind. Jessie recognises this, but agreed that it is hard to put that into a ‘box’ or a ‘plan’ that you can advise someone uses, as you can do with exercise and food.

I arrived home to be greeted by an excited dog and an excited other half…neither of them like being left at home on their own. Although, thankfully, my other half doesn’t wee on the kitchen floor like the dog does if I leave her on her own! :-)

My other half and I have been brainstorming this evening. I am progressing with my coaching bits and pieces and he thinks I need a ‘name’ for my coaching stuff. So I have been sat listening to him throwing names my way. Given that he is a bit ‘out there’ at times, and I am jabbed-up, it has not been a fruitful mission, so if any of you have any suggestions for my coaching business name, then let me have them. I think he has been watching too many ‘Moonpig’ adverts as he keeps suggesting names with animals involved…whereas I am going for something a bit more serious for some reason. Throw your suggestions my way!

Right then – I feel done in for the evening. I know he wants to watch GoggleBox; I am not sure I will last that long. Normal service will resume tomorrow after I have had time to reflect on the days events…and a bit of sleep!

Breakfast: Quorn sausage rolls (2 x HEA and 2 x HEB).

20131120-203233.jpgLunch: Curried Quorn veggie pasta.

20131120-203329.jpgDinner: Leek, potato and carrot soup.

20131120-203425.jpgSnacks: Banana, Nakd bar (7.5 syns) and rice cakes (4.5 syns).

20131120-203509.jpgA good food day. I had planned for the day and made my rolls to eat in the car on the way – Quorn sausages, my HEAs of cheese, spinach and tomato with my HEB rolls. Lunch was a bit of a deviation from my planned orzo and Quorn ‘chicken’ salad…as there was no orzo or Quorn chicken when I went to the shops! So I modified that and used small pasta pieces, the Quorn mince, and some veggies – red pepper, courgette and peppers – with some garlic, chilli and madras powder. I took this with me to the lunch…and told the waitress that I had bought my own food due to food allergies…the fib rolled off my tongue and made it easy for me to eat my food. This may be a bit over the top for some people…but I was pretty proud of myself for taking my own food! Don’t get me wrong, the menu looked fab as did the food that arrived for others…it is just me and what I need to do. Dinner was the soup from last night, and my snacks were munched over the course of the evening.

Exercise: Nothing today! :-(

Thank you for reading,

Weight Loss Bitch xxx



On a health and fitness driven journey to lose over 32st / 448lbs / 203kgs – yes, it is a considerable amount – I am committed to losing my excess weight without the aid of weight loss surgery, diet pills, or quick fixes…as there aren’t any! Changing my eating habits and building up my fitness levels, along with addressing the ‘head issues’ will be crucial in order for me to achieve my goal. Living in England as a 31 year old super morbidly obese woman can be challenging to say the least. I have been shouted at in the street and verbally abused far too many times to mention; hence the name ‘Weight Loss Bitch’…the day I am just called a ‘bitch’ instead of a ‘fat bitch’ will be the day that I know I have cracked my weight loss! With many reasons to lose this weight I am documenting my journey for a number of reasons. Firstly, I would like to keep a record of the ups and downs, the highs and lows, and the challenges I face with such an enormous task to tackle. Secondly, I would also like to inspire and encourage other people who are in a similar situation and to show them that significant amounts of weight can be lost naturally…with a bit of motivation, hard work, dedication and will power. Thirdly, all of the blogging, Facebook-ing, Tweet-ing, Pinterest-ing and YouTube-ing keeps me occupied and keeps my fingers out of the fridge!

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