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Im a big girl now.  Yesterday afternoon, I signed with a company for a post graduation job.  It is an absolutely amazing opportunity and I could not be more blessed for be given this job.  As I signed for the job and scanned it into my computer, I would be lying if I didn’t feel a sense of pride and excitement.  But I also felt an overwhelming sense of uncertainty.

It’s not the job that scares me;  It’s my body.  I am blessed to have been equipped with the skills necessary to succeed at the job, but I cannot help but think, “what happens if my body turns against me?”  What happens if I flare while I’m working?  I don’t often voice these concerns and those around me probably have no idea that I’m truly concerned about these issues, but I would be naive to have not even thought about them.

Just Breath.  I have to remind myself to just keep breathing.  Because although it is good to think about these concerns, they can quickly become paralyzing.  When I let these fears paralyze me and keep me from trying, then I am letting my disease win.
Not to say that I’m not worried, but ya know what?  If I get sick, then I get sick, and I’ll deal with it one day at a time.

Cheers to the future.  So raise a glass to the future.  I have no idea how my disease will be in a year or how my body will react to being in the working world.  But I have faith that God’s plan will prevail and life will go on!  I am a firm believer that there is no such thing as failure as long as you never stop trying and I will never stop trying!  I take my life one day at a time and moment to moment to make the most of each day in my not so normal life.