“Some people create their own storms and get mad when it rains”- Anon.

First and foremost remember remember the 5th of November, gunpowder, treason and plot!

Good old Guy Fawkes the fact he wanted to blow up the houses of parliament is irrelevant, the fact that every 5th of November without fail have fireworks going off can be rather spectacular that’s if you’re at a firework display that is.

If you have your own fireworks then watch out because you know where they’re heading.. on your conifers that’s where they’re heading! If you’re anything like me they either won’t light or they will actually set the conifers alight!

On a more serious note I have chosen tonight’s quote for numerous reasons really.

So far this month already has flown don’t you think?

We are onto the 5th day of Epilepsy awareness month and to be fair the support from you all regarding my blog and Epilepsy as a whole has been astronomical. You all have an input and share your thoughts both positive and negative on your condition and you know what that’s a big step. Compared to previous years I’m now reading about people going out of their way to drum up support for Epilepsy and put our condition on the map.

Whether it be painting your nails purple, baking the odd cake for charity or just writing a piece about your version of events this will enable someone around the world to see that if you can do it then so can they. Each and every one of you deserves a humongous pat on the back!

Over the course of the past 48 hours I’ve been thinking long and hard about what this evening’s quote means to me.

I would say when it comes to me I have been known for over analysing everything in my life to the detriment of my health. I know in myself that I cannot blame anyone else for that, I know in myself that the majority of it was of my own making.

Now I’m not going to sit here and wallow in my old self pity or ask for any form of sympathy whatsoever because I know that over the years particularly in times of naivety that I’ve allowed myself to be in positions that I could have quite easily walked away from and didn’t. Maybe the worrying Saz was afraid of change and wanted so desperately to be a part of a group, a unit that I would be proud to say I’m a part of.

Looking back particularly over the past few years I’ve witnessed many changes of events ranging from the therapy, the worry, the shakes and the uncertainty however am starting to come to terms with the fact that I’m not the same person getting mad when it rains. I’m not the person blaming everyone else for my shortfalls.

I’m the person who nowadays doesn’t mind walking in puddles on the basis that I’m comfortable with who I am. Cutting a long story short I cannot be arsed with the hassle anymore. Kicking up that fuss doesn’t achieve anything.

You are all aware that when it comes to myself I strip it down and lay my cards on the table. I write what I feel and know in myself that by speaking to you all and sharing our lives with one another that we too can see how extremely lucky we are to have what we have right this second.

In an article lately I read about appreciating life for what it is. There are people in life who focus solely on a specific category and go hell for leather at it. Me I am what I am and I shouldn’t have to justify myself to anyone. On the basis my health permits me too then I’ll go for what I want when I want it and I would recommend you all do too.

This is the problem with life. Sometimes we get so caught up with not being able to see the wood for the trees that we forget who we are.

I can tell you exactly who you are. You are a person who will come up triumphant. You’re a person with stamina, love and are admired by others for the person you are. You are someone who shouldn’t care less about other people’s opinions because you are who you are and that should be praised not shunned. You are a person like everyone else and deserve to walk taller than ever before.

As for the remainder of the day.

On Sunday night a new healthy eating regime commenced. My goal was to remain healthy and to just eat in moderation sticking to my 1400 calorie limit. It’s safe to say that after two full days that I’m doing quite well. I didn’t succumb to my mother in law’s fabulous desserts on Monday and thought to myself about the long term goal instead of the short term happiness.

Exercise wise my slim in 6 doesn’t half make me laugh. As un-lady as it is to some reading whilst squatting there is this radical part of me that wants to stop the DVD and start doing a bit of booty shaking. If I’m squatting and it’s toning the tush then why not?!

To conclude today’s post. Don’t allow anyone to knock you down. Show yourself what you’re made of and don’t allow anyone else to tell you differently. There’s a good old saying that the people who get seen first are the people who shout the loudest. Mmmm I think I have to pass on that one.



Overcoming worry, anxiety and learning to cope with epilepsy. I dedicate this blog to my family and to all those people out there who thought the possible was impossible. Life isn’t about doing everything yesterday it’s about finding acceptance and taking your time. This blog has been created to document my findings and to allow others to understand that they are not alone. I have tried my best to collate these concerns for others to read should they wish. The intention is to not only address my concerns of my condition however I also intend to address my daily struggles whilst giving an insight as to what my days entail.

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