Tonight’s title was inspired by Liz…it was part of her response to my weigh-in day news!
I put on 0.5lbs! 
Now 0.5lbs in the grand scheme of things is nothing…I would like to lose 907 little 0.5lbs in total…so one little blip doesn’t hurt in the numbers game. But weight loss isn’t a numbers game…it’s a head vs heart game!
So whilst my head – the rational part of it at least – is okay with 0.5lbs on…my heart wasn’t! At first I thought I had stayed the same and I was gutted about that. My immediate response was, “Well, I’m back to the gym full-time then!”…when my consultant told me a few minutes later that it was actually 0.5lbs on, I was over myself by that point and just thought, “Sod it!”
Not ‘sod it!’ in the sense of going off track and heading home via KFC, Wing Wah, and Asda…but ‘sod it!’ in the sense that when I hit my target, I won’t even remember this little blip! 
It is gutting. I have followed the advice of the PT and my consultant to ease off on the exercise, and have kept everything else at a similar level. If you play a numbers game then the 4lbs I had off last week led me to believe that it wasn’t unrealistic to get 2.5lbs off this week for that elusive 20st award! But playing the numbers game is no good for you. Before I stepped on the scales I felt good. I felt smaller in a way, I am waving goodbye to the tail-end of my cold, and I had resisted the lure of the Marks and Spencer adverts. In terms of how I felt before getting on the scales, the signs were positive.
So I am deciding to try and ignore the numbers and just keep doing what I am doing.
I am pinning the blame on the spider bite and the new salted caramel HiFi bars…they were the only out of the ordinary things to happen this week! 
Other than the bugger, bugger, poo moment, group was good. We talked about Easter treats…a touchy subject for me given those bloody aforementioned adverts. Oh, and I came downstairs this morning to find an empty box from a Cadburys Caramel Easter egg. That was Mr WLBs choice of breakfast apparently…I think it was either 46 or 47 syns in total…maybe 49…but fecking high anyway. And this fuelled his day!
So yes, Easter treats. I am choosing to avoid them. That’s just personal choice. A hot-cross bun is about 10 syns. If I eat one then I want more of them…it’s a trigger food. That’s 10 syns without butter or margarine…add this and you are looking at 16 syns. My Mum apparently ate a packet of 6 hot-cross buns on Saturday night! To be fair to her she had had a stressful week with a foster placement who keeps running away…but Mum won’t be able to catch them if she’s loaded down with hot-cross buns!
I am avoiding Easter treats. I am not a militant who makes everyone else around me avoid their treats though. They can choose to enjoy their goodies if they want. Their food is their food…I don’t eat that type of food anymore. My mind might want it, but my backside definitely doesn’t need it!
Pizza Lady made me smile again. She comes out with some corkers at times. Porridge sachets being 2.5 syns was one today…we think she assumed that because you microwave some of them for 2.5 minutes. Then she has been eating the Uncle Ben’s rice pots thinking they were okay…the rice alone is 1.5 syns and the sauce that you put on top varies between 4 and 11 syns I think. She did however redeem herself by saying that she ate a hot-cross bun and then checked the syns in the book. I am praying for the day that she checks the syns before she eats the food! She does make me chuckle!
So group finished and I headed straight to the gym. I bumped into the chap that showed us around and told him why I was so glum. He gave me all sorts of man-reasons as to why a lady might not lose weight…not wearing the same clothes to get weighed in, different time of day, different time of week, hormones…no to all of those! I wear the same outfit, get weighed at the same time, same day each week, and have medication for my hyperplasia which skips the lady issues during the month. I didn’t have the heart to argue with him as he was trying his best to avoid the wrath of a woman pissed off with the scales. I just got on the cross-trainer and worked out my frustration.
It’s business as usual then. I might take a look over the past week at some point…but I don’t want to get obsessed. I had a good workout, a nice lunch, and then got ready to head off and speak with two lovely Slimming World groups. Life goes on…0.5lbs is the difference between a good poo and a tiny wee in the morning I guess…although I had both this morning (eek…TMI…apologies!) but my point is that I know I am on the right track. I have shifted 19st 11lbs and need to give myself a break – yet remain focused and determined.
Bugger, bugger, and poo! I am over it now! In fact, I had a warning the other night…I dreamt that I put on 2.5lbs. Then again, last night I dreamt that the Duchess of Cambridge was a good friend of mine…so dreams aren’t much to go on!
The groups – or rather the people I met at them tonight – were amazing! Such a lovely bunch. What I love about chatting to people is that we share so much – I see people nodding their heads, and then talking to me afterwards about shared issues. We might not have the same amount of weight to lose, but a lot of the mental barriers to shifting this weight are shared by many. It was a good night. I am off to bed soon to catch up on my guilty pleasure…Home and Away…and my other…Made in Chelsea!
Breakfast: Boiled eggs, bananas and rice cakes (4.5 syns).
Lunch: Burgers and fruit (2 x HEA, 2 x HEB, and 2 syns).
Dinner: Curried rice, roasted veggies, and Quorn deli chicken.
Snacks: French Fries (16 syns).
An okay food day. I prepped most of it last night as I knew that it was a busy day. Brekkie was a new one…I was trying to listen to the advice I have been given and as I was heading off to the gym straight after group then a couple of bananas is not good enough. So I boiled a couple of lovely farm eggs and took those to group too…everyone else smelt of perfume…I smelt of boiled eggs! And the rice cakes were for after my workout…although they probably weren’t needed as I headed straight home to my burgers. The burgers were good, as was the fruit. Dinner was prepped and eaten between Slimming World talks…Batchelor’s mild curry rice, roasted veggies – red onion, courgette, and peppers – some spinach and cherry tomatoes, with the Quorn deli chicken. And French Fries for pudding!
Exercise: 20 minutes elliptical machine, 12 minutes hand-bike, and 18 minutes treadmill.
Thank you for reading,
Weight Loss Bitch xxx
WeightLossBitch
On a health and fitness driven journey to lose over 32st / 448lbs / 203kgs – yes, it is a considerable amount – I am committed to losing my excess weight without the aid of weight loss surgery, diet pills, or quick fixes…as there aren’t any! Changing my eating habits and building up my fitness levels, along with addressing the ‘head issues’ will be crucial in order for me to achieve my goal. Living in England as a 31 year old super morbidly obese woman can be challenging to say the least. I have been shouted at in the street and verbally abused far too many times to mention; hence the name ‘Weight Loss Bitch’…the day I am just called a ‘bitch’ instead of a ‘fat bitch’ will be the day that I know I have cracked my weight loss! With many reasons to lose this weight I am documenting my journey for a number of reasons. Firstly, I would like to keep a record of the ups and downs, the highs and lows, and the challenges I face with such an enormous task to tackle. Secondly, I would also like to inspire and encourage other people who are in a similar situation and to show them that significant amounts of weight can be lost naturally…with a bit of motivation, hard work, dedication and will power. Thirdly, all of the blogging, Facebook-ing, Tweet-ing, Pinterest-ing and YouTube-ing keeps me occupied and keeps my fingers out of the fridge!
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